I own this blog!!

Giving up on explaning

2011-09-05T01:54:00.001+08:00

Im never partying with people with intentions. EVER. Great. Now, I’m labelled as a slut and many many more other stuff. Just so you people know, seeing and looking is a totally different thing. LOOK properly before you analyze anything okay.

I have to admit, I have the tendency to tell white lies just to protect myself especially my pride. Before this , the lie was a truth, but soon, it just became an excuse so people won’t ask. So they won’t talk. I’d rather stay that way than explain. Explaining just makes everything worse And explaining to people who will NEVER believe me and spread rumours around is the stupidest thing I’ve ever done.

What’s done is done.

Blogging on a request

2011-08-14T08:34:00.001+08:00

Jo, Im blogging because YOU requested be proud!!

What I’ve been up to lately? My semester break has started for nearly 3 weeks now and I’m super reluctant to return to that horrible, boring world. YES. I dislike that place THAT much now . == MEH.

So this holiday I’ve did quite a few things. Took up Yoga classes , did a lil baking (no photos but it was quite a success for a beginner mum said ) and spent the rest of my time hanging out with my high school babes and tv.

THAT is me with my new FUGLY bangs

This is me posing as a mermaid in a Child’s playground. We (Claypot and I) entered the playground because we’re vain just like that.

And that’s me posing as a caterpillar . Claypot laughed super hard when I was trying so hard to fit into that body =.= It proved that I was wayyy too fat. *sigh*

Now that most of the Form 6’s have decided what they wanna do and take, they’re all waiting to enter Universities and start anew. All their anticipations on University life reminded me of how I was when I was about to enter INTI TWO years ago. (gawsh I feel so old.) Feeling all hyped about going to a new place, leaving home, what to wear, what to prepare and etc etc.

And while they’re feeling so happy about all those, I’m super sick of it already. Maybe its because…I ‘ve always moved around a lot when I was younger, I tend to look for new places, new stuff, new experiences every now and then. The feeling where you try to blend in to one place is always exciting to me. Although leaving the old place is scary and sad ,but going to a new place means new hopes and new things to look forward to and you get to leave ALL the sad things behind Which is totally the best part. So now, the only thing I can look forward to is…. my graduation ? In ….two more years? Hopefully…. then I’d be able to do so many things that are much more interesting than what I am doing right now

Enough of complains now. Signing off!

xoxo.

Im such a sucky blogger

2011-08-06T07:01:00.001+08:00

Im such a sucky blogger. WTV.

Here I am blogging at 6.30 am in my room at home because I can’t sleep, have really puffy eyes and am hungry == It’s the second day since I’ve had a proper loooong sleep. The previous night, I tried to sleep at 2 but rolled on the bed till 4 + and then I had to wake up at 7 for my Yoga classes. Then for the whole day, it was hang out time with my loves back home After one full day of fun and games and shopping *ehem*, I was so tired that I fell asleep on the couch as soon as I got home. Then brother woke me up at 2am asking me to continue my slumber in my room. Once I got back to my room, my newly bought books were lying on my bed, YEARNING for me to read em !! Yes. I made a mistake removing the plastic cover and flipping to page 1. And so I ended up tearing and crying as I read. Reason 1: Its really really touching. Reason 2: Eyes are constantly reminding me to sleep NOW or I’ll have puffy eyes tomorrow. And being a smartass as I am, I ignored all the i-should-sleep signs and followed the pages till the very last page.

Upon closing the book, I tried to go back to sleep but FAILED miserably. Insomnia AGAIN. FML. And when I looked into the mirror, I got a shock of my life. I look like a toad. O.O

This is like my LIMIT. My eyes ARE UNABLE to open any bigger already T____________________T Please don’t stay this way for the whole day!!!

Owh, the book that I really really really recommend. It’s a novel about love between friends, family and life partners

Night Road by Kristin Hannah

“An exquisite, heartbreaking story that speaks to women everywhere about the things that matter most.”

Hmm…time for breakfast?

Good to see you peeps here again btw!

Cousin Peter’s wedding

2011-07-09T03:44:00.001+08:00

My Australian cousin Peter finally got married last weekend in Penang and the wedding ceremony was awesome The whole weekend was spent at Batu Ferringhi’s hotelS with my awesome cousins. I am so sorry to be unable to provide you with photos people!! >.< Silly me left my camera back home because……..yeah. I AM STUPID. T_____T But I assure you when they’re uploaded on facebook, you’ll be seeing em here too!

My cousin’s wedding showed me how time flew so fast! It was like yesterday when we were all little kids, running around beating each other up , ignoring the gender or the dresses we were wearing. Guys wrestled with girls and the girls would beat em up just as bad. Today, we’re all grown up. Boys in handsome suits and girls in elegant dresses sat at the table as we reminisce.

SPOT ME!! XD this picture was taken 12 years ago people!!!! woot!!!! when I was 8 how cool is that!!

I love my FAMILY <3 all of em

Emo me

2011-06-28T05:38:00.001+08:00

I know I promised an update since umpteen years ago but I just never had the time to do so. (excuses) Actually its because of the new semester which is driving me crazy. Hectic life.

8 hours of class on Mondays, two each on Tuesdays and Fridays, and four hours on Wednesdays. Plus, two hours of INTIMA duty each day. Plus, additional overtime hours that I took on myself. And numerous homework. My life right now is busier than my working dad. =/ And all of these are just putting so much stress on me.

Not only that, Im having so much dilemmas with myself , its driving my nuts. Once upon a time, I had no troubles, I had no worries. Now? UGH. Look at my poor skin and you’d know how much stress I’ve put myself under.

Finally it’s the mid-semester break and I’ve got a week’s time to put myself to complete relaxation so I ‘ve decided to do something I’ve never done before and Its definitely something most of you WOULD NEVER DO.

Switch off my phone for a week. Minimal contact with the outside world and leave myself to enjoy complete relaxation back home . I have my mom to go shopping where and when I like. and I have my brother to lean on and listen to me mumble about my stuff. I love them just soooo much!! Too bad daddy’s busy working in Tawau or he’ll be able to join all these fun too !

I’m not being EMO if you’re wondering. I just need a lot of “ME” time to put me back on track. I know ever since a year ago I’ve been having a lot of “ME” time. According to a friend of mine who minors in Psychology, I’m slowly picking up the broken pieces one by one. It’s the slowest way to put the puzzles back to one but it’s the kindest way to everyone. I chose not to use a friend to bring the pieces back together. And , I chose to keep my memories. Its one of the dumbest way but I AM enjoying the process a lot.

--THE END OF MY EMO STUFF--

Here’s for those who did NOT see the photos I took from Pulau Tioman!

nyehehe..Putting on SUNBLOCKKKK! XD (FAT LEGS =/)

The BEST jump shot we had XD

but I prefer this one

KAYAKING!!

The girls~

The *ehem* macho men!

The MUST HAVE on a trip! Games with DRINKS

Joyce stares: OMG SUZIAN! WHY YOU SO FAT! Drunk me: eheh..paise la. Born like that. apa boleh buat?

Idontknowwhatimdoing. =___________=

SISTASSSS <3 (yes. He’s a sista )

Now BROTHASSSS

That V pose stands for VOLLEYBALL alright! Not the lame sign you’re thinking about

I’m sorry Jo. Really am. I didn’t mean to not reply you on Skype or the phone or twitter. Am being kinda selfish this week cz I need a time off. Really truly. Call my mom when you get back? Or.. text my mom? My phone’s gonna be dead for the rest of the holidays. Sorry…

One year. Officially :)

2011-05-24T00:08:00.001+08:00

One year now. Officially. You always know when to check in..

Thank you .

I should really really work hard and focus on my studies and nothing else. My grades are dropping like hell. Second semester and it's dropped even more. why can people maintain theirs and I can’t?

I can only blame myself. I should open my mouth and ask when I don’t know. Kiss up to my lecturer as much as I can so she won’t hate me =___________= FML.

THIS IS SO NOT ME.

EMO.

kthanksbai.

An awesome post coming up soon.

2011-05-20T09:24:00.001+08:00

My shortest semester break of 10 days is now officially over and I’m back in college ARGHHH.. I wanna stay home

Now that daddy’s far away in Tawau, Sabah, I feel even further from home Going to KL no longer feel THAT homey anymore. sighhh…

Anyways, I’m supposed to update about my awesome trip to Pulau Tioman with my volleyball mates but I’m just soooo tired right now. So I promise to update all about it in a few days time kay?

Just a sneak peek in the meantime!

The girls that went. That was how happy we were

I’m a lucky girl. Loving parents, loving brothers and loving friends. They’re all I need for now

Good night world!

Girls’ night in :)

2011-05-06T04:41:00.001+08:00

Today instead of doing what I’ve stated in my previous post , I went around google-ing for beauty stuff . E.G how to make me HUGE pores smaller. and how to go thinner and lots of other shit. Then I found this!

The article was about how we girls can pamper ourselves once in a while!

Title: A GIRL’S NIGHT IN.

1.Start it with HAIRCARE !

To help moisturize your hair and heal damage, mix 1 teaspoon of honey, 2 tablespoons of olive oil, and 1 egg yolk. Massage this mixture into your hair and leave for 30 minutes.

2. In the meantime, start the FACIAL !

First, get some water heating and then cleanse your face!

Cleanse using 1 tablespoon each of honey, olive oil, and sugar to use as a cleanser. After you cleanse your face, exfoliate. When your water is boiling, steam your face for about 20 minutes.

3. During this 20 minutes, we can get started with our NAILS!

Soak them in olive oil while you are steaming your face. This helps nail and healthy and strong.

4. When the 20 minutes is up, use toner on your face to get rid of toxins and dead skin. Now, it’s time for A MASK.

Try mixing 2 egg whites with a few drops of lemon juice and applying it to your face. This will draw out any remaining impurities in your pores. Let this dry for about 5 minutes and then rinse it off.Use toner on your face again then moisturize

5. Now you can shampoo your hair to get out the egg mixture.

6. After that, a nice SOOTHING BATH.

Add 3 cups of powdered milk and ½ cup honey to a running bath and enjoy!

When you finish your bath, make sure to use body lotion to moisturize your skin. Olive Oil is a great moisturizer too!

7. Last but not least to wrap up the night,put some baking soda on your toothbrush before your paste when brushing your teeth! This helps in whitening your teeth after sometime

So, girls, time to pamper yourselves the DIY way Its CHEAP, its SOOTHING and you’ll feel really awesome the next day..I think? XD

Call or text me if you want me to join the fun!

In the meantime, CHEERIOS!

I’m a single, happy, bubbly “little” scorpion

Stuff I should NOT be doing.

2011-05-04T20:52:00.001+08:00

First paper done. ACC BUHBYEEE Before I say bye, I really wanna thank my lecturer actually. No matter what results I get for ACC this semester, I’m still gonna thank her for all the help she gave The awesome lecturer gave us SPECIFIC points for us to study and turns out, NOTHING that we have studied for was wasted. Everything she gave was actually quite similar to our exam questions. So yeahh..if I get really bad for this subject, it all my fault. I’m lazy and dumb. =/

Well…not exactly lazy and dumb la.. I just… spent my time doing stuff I should NOT be doing like

twittering….

Facebooking =___________=( I know all of you do this too )

Blog hopping (checking out girls mainly)

She’s my idol for the meantime gorgeous and THIN. I want!!!!

eating…..

THIS tastes awesome. Im serious!! Add them when you’re feeling kinda sick of the non-chewable porridge Meiji biscuits are THE BEST! They seem to be less fattening and they have a slight salty taste Go try! its VERY filling though.

and THIS. HAHAHA! Try not to have nightmares kay?

Last but not least,

BLOGGING =________= I realized I blog more than I normally do during study week . THERE GOES MY STUDIES.

Of course I do a lotta other crap but its impossible for me to list them all down because ….there’s a LOT OF CRAP that I do.

Kay then. After all the crap I’ve done for today, time to get back to my studies! Wish me luck for my Finals people!

BANG~! Im dead.

I love being a Scorpion :)

2011-05-03T14:43:00.001+08:00

I am a Scorpion. and I’m proud to be one

After reading this from scorpioseason.com, I’m DEFINITELY a true scorpion

1) I’m a #Scorpio (I know.. *gasp*)

2) Most people think I’m mean but if you get to know me, I’m actually a cool person

3) I am a difficult person to get to know though LOL #Scorpios are secretive

4) You’ll never really know what I’m thinking. I could be feeling you but you wouldn’t know it

5) If I go out of my way to talk to you (rare), I either care about you, or you got something I want rofl

6) Flirting does nothing for me. Confidence=turn on, as well as other lil simple things #imnottelling

7) I think about sex more than I care to admit

8 ) It may seem like I’m picky when it comes to love, but I’m really just weeding out all the dummies

9) I don’t trust anybody completely. Not even you… (sorry)

10) I am irritable. Don’t irritate me. Thanks LOL

11) Oh, I know how to push your buttons. It’s fun.

12) I usually get what I want. I’m kinda persuasive like that

13) I don’t let many people in, because they wouldn’t understand the depth of my thoughts

14) So I keep to myself, and smile at you silly, superficial azz people

15) I’m a people watcher. I see you!

16) I like to be left alone. I need my space. Always thinking.

17) You don’t want to see me mad. Yea. Don’t do it.

18) I’m independent. Don’t need anybody. But would love to love somebody

19) If I let you in you will see that I’m one of the most downest people you’d ever meet

20) I’m a serious person but I’m funny too, I’d do anything to make you laugh, even at my own expense

21) I’m an affectionate person. Not in public though. Unless I’m in *that* kinda mood

22) I feel 1000000000 times stronger than most. But I know how to keep it together

23) I keep my friends close, and my enemies closer >:)

24) I’m nocturnal

25) You probably don’t know about it, but I have HUGE goals in life

26) You’re all bark, no bite. I’M ALL BITE #Scorpio (Don’t talk about it BE about it)

27) I’m a great multitasker..at work, home, in the bedroom (keep that in mind *wink wink*)

28) 1 of the best ways to lose me quick is to try to make me say or do something I don’t want to do

29) When we’re talking, give me your undivided attention or leave me alone

30) I will give you all of me, and I want the same in return

31) 98% of you wouldn’t be able to handle me *shrugs*

32) Keep me happy and interested, and you’ll have a loyal partner for life

33) I won’t stick around if I’m not interested. I can’t be fake, sorry.

34) Hurt my family, I’ll hurt you.. one way or another

35) WARNING: I can be addicting. When I’m gone you will experience withdrawal symptoms

36) I need someone who will support my ambition, not get in the way

37) I could be your best friend or worst enemy. Choose wisely

38) When I love, I love HARD. That’s why I tend to love few. You have to be worth it

39) I could be difficult at times. I want to see you prove that you love me

40) I’m worth it. I promise <3

41) I don't like being bothered with questions. If you bother me, I'll ignore you (Thanks @firexbomb!)

42) Don’t play with me. I invented this game. (Thanks @abandaq!)

43) I like to get my way, but I like it even more when there is a challenge involved (Thanks@so_HollyHood!)

44) Never show what I feel, NEVER . (Thanks @mosquiito!)

45) (We want) Real love. Ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can’t-live-without-each-other love (Thanks @pUnKrOcKpRiNc3!)

46) When we are quiet, we aren’t being arrogant we are watching and thinking everything (Thanks@PattPerez!)

47) I can sometimes forgive, but I NEVER forget (Thanks @resemo!)

48) C0MPETETI0N ? BRING IT 0N (Thanks @KEEPiT100SHOBAD!)

49) I love people, but I hate people (Thanks @ShadyRese!)

50) Darkness is a state of mind we know too well. (Thanks @FeuerkindJana!)

51) Don’t underestimate what I might know. I know everything about you! (Thanks @resemo!)

52) we have an extreme passion within us. One that you’ll probably mistake for what you think is love (Thanks @mista_drew!)

53) I don’t trust easy….so have patience…I will question you, deal with it… (Thanks @hbomb1119!)

54) I Never Let Some1 Play With My Feelings Wht So Ever! (Thanks @8one1!)

55) The only thing that can stop ME from anything I put my mind to, is ME! (Thanks@ChuckieObienu!)

56) I know I’m a bitch…thanks for the compliment. better a bitch than a doormat! (Thanks@hbomb1119!)

57) (Scorpios) likes to read people but never let anyone read their minds (Thanks @MirandaSuz!)

58) (Scorpios are) ready to have sex anywhere any time just give me a wink (Thanks @NYG804!)

59) Scorpios don’t Trust easily. It has 2B Earned (Thanks @TrgdyAnn!)

60) We’re so soft deep inside. Our outside shell betrays big time! (Thanks @nmazhar!)

61) Treat me good and I will treat you better, treat me bad and I will treat you worst (Thanks@rafacanedo!)

62) How about…I say what I want to say and I do what I want to do (Thanks @__Rad__!)

63) I don’t like being in emotional limbo. It’s all or nothing. (Thanks @pUnKrOcKpRiNc3!

64) If we fall down seven times, we’ll get up eight times. (Thanks @mayang_88!)

65) I am not going to stick around if I see you flirting with someone else

66) I can be completely into you but if you do something I really dislike, we’re done, YOU killed it

67) Once I see that other side of you, it will never be the same, I won’t forget

68) It takes a lot to hurt me but fck… when I do hurt, it hurts SO bad

69) I’m super quiet when I’m upset. Nothing you do or say will get me to smile or react. Leave me alone

70) When I love someone I make them the center of my world, I put them above all others

71) I don’t want to share you.

72) Don’t tell me what to do. If you do, I’ll most likely do the opposite

73) I’m stubborn. Once I’ve made up my mind there’s really nothing you could do. I’ll applaud your effort though

74) I’m not impressed when you brag about superficial things. Don’t throw yourself at me, it’s tacky

75) I don’t PLAY hard to get, I AM hard to get!

76) If I were to tell you what it takes to get me, I’d have to kill you

77) I like that subtle sex appeal and confidence. Nothing over the top. Don’t try too hard.

78) Lie to me and you’ll get the blank stare *_*

79) Sometimes I’ll pretend I don’t know something, to see if you’ll admit to it or bring it up

80) I’m not afraid of you, you, or YOU! Try me, I DARE you.

81) If I don’t know you or don’t like you, you don’t exist. Don’t flatter yourself thinking that you cross my mind

82) I could cut you out of my life in a split second if you cross me

83) Yea I’m a sexual person, it doesn’t mean that I’ll just sleep with ANYBODY though

84) It takes more than good looks to get me, I’m far from shallow

85) If I’m good to you, don’t take my kindness for weakness. That can change QUICKLY

86) My mood can change in the blink of an eye. Be ready?

87) It’s hard to capture my interest, and hard to keep my interest.. but once you have it, you have it all

88) Seducing… it comes natural to me

89) I know I’m driving you crazy when I *casually* touch you in public. I act innocent though

90) I’m more in control than you think I know exactly what I’m doing

91) I won’t profess my love by shouting it on a rooftop, I’ll show you it in other ways

92) I have a tight circle of friends. You’re either in or out. You’re either with me or against me

93) People always have some type of reaction [gasp/fear/interest] when I tell them I’m a #SCORPIO

94) I could be excited/sad/pissed inside but you’d never know it, unless I wanted you to know #calmexterior

95) I’m very intuitive. I can read you like a book so you can’t really surprise me #10stepsaheadofyou

96) I’m a loyal person, cheating is not an option. If I wasn’t happy with you, I’d be single!

97) I could get pretty ruthless when I’m mad :/ Nothing is off-limits

98) People usually comment on my eyes or the way I look at them “Don’t look at me like that!”

99) I’m intense, passionate, loyal, determined and intuitive

100) I can be intense, jealous & demanding but if you can’t handle me at my worst, you don’t deserve me at my best

If you’re a scorpion too, I’m glad you read my blog ^^

I NEED TO BE THIN

2011-04-30T07:48:00.001+08:00

I NEED TO BE THIN!!!

ARGHH!!! @#$$%^&*(@#$%^&*(@#$%^&*(@#$%^&^%#!#%%#@!$%rsswe$%$#@@

When Im fat, my world feels like its black and white

A day that makes me forgets my finals

2011-04-28T16:37:00.001+08:00

In a week more, I would be facing my finals. EVERYONE is studying like mad just to score in their exams.

What am I doing?

Shopping at Pavillion, Enjoying a Buffet dinner at Jogoya AGAIN, and Hanging out with friends till late night. OMG. I hate myself.

Beeping UFO from Snowflakes ! Ooohh oohhh!! And Look on the table!! Its my VOLLEYBALL !! lame I know……………….

Yum Yum~ Grass Jelly + I don’t know a bunch of other things. Tastes really good especially the “tang yuen “ like things . XD

Shoppingggggggg. Picked this picture BECAUSE my legs look a bit thinner here. NOT because of the retarded face. TQ

Its his farewell actually. That’s why we were NOT STUDYING . Hey orangee!!!

Saya tomato. Dia…tak tau apa. LOL

Anyhows, time to study, gamfei and NOT SURF THE NET anymore. Ciao!

When I SHOULD be studying

2011-04-27T03:00:00.001+08:00

I should be studying at this hour. Im like wayyy behind schedule, and I have so many plans packed up for this week but I AM NOT STUDYING NOW. WHY? I DON’T KNOW!!

FML max.

That angel is shouuuu cute!!!!! <3 I can’t stop looking at him sial.

He doesn’t wanna take nice picta wif me As he grows older, all he wants is to struggle and explore everything around

You have no idea how much effort we took to make him stand like that. OMGGGG. But SO CUTE!!!! <3<3

How’d you like my new tattoo??

Purposely made it so small so won’t look so FAT So sampat I know

Imma head back to try to study now. BYE.

I need to study

2011-04-25T21:51:00.000+08:00

Last semester I almost lost my scholarship. Thus this semester I HAVE TO WORK HARD!!
I want a first class honours!!!
I want to maintain my scholarship!!!!
I don't wanna let my dad down!!! >.<

CHOO SU ZIAN!!! Studyy!!!!!!!!!!!

As suggested by Claryn Tan, I shall emo now. Kthxbai.
=X

Shopping Crave!!

2011-04-19T11:11:00.000+08:00

I NEED TO SHOP!!!!

I friggin need to go shopping !! Haven't been shopping for 2 months now and I'm running outta wardrobe choices >.<

Shopping checklist :

1.a new skirt ( cz I've been wearing the same one for about 2 years now O_O)

2.a RED dress for my cousin's wedding. Its a faux pas to wear black to their wedding :( i want something like this ! :)

niceeeeee *drools*

Or, I should get something long ;)

<3 <3

Problem is : will I be able to FIND one ??? T____________T

3. Tops. Any random nice tops :)

4. Bra. haha.. Nu Bra in specific. To wear em on dresses so I won't look retarded. sigh...

To buy all of em, Im gonna be broke soon. Sorry dad :(

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

Gimme the money money money :)

Clothes.

2011-04-18T23:35:00.001+08:00

So today was another rare occasion where I went out with BOTH my brothers and my dearest neighbour / bestie / love to supper. To most of you it might not be a RARE occasion but having BOTH MY BROTHERS + someone who's not blood related to me going out with me is VERY RARE. And lemme tell you this, IT IS HELL.

But anyways, back to what I wanted to say. As we were driving back, we started about a very....interesting topic.

"Why do we girls nowadays have to wear revealing clothes? "

   My brother, Alexander, is only 27 this year. And he has a gorgeous wife. By right, guys at his age would not be oh-so-closeminded like how people were back in my GRANDMOTHER's days! In his opinion, girls, like my sis-in-law and I, should dress appropriately.
   Dressing appropriately in his language = No shorts (Above knee length), No mini skirts (Above knee length), No tight fitting clothes, no revealing clothes ( includes singles, bare backs, bare SHOULDERS, low cut both front and back) and no definitely NO WHITE TEES.
   I seriously pity my sis-in-law and my brother's previous girlfriends. They're not allowed to wear all these AT ALL! If they even attempt to do so, my brother will go all wild and eat em up. (i think) So far, none of his gfs has tried it so I'd love to see em try....
   Although I am my brother's lil sister, I wear everything that he states NOT to wear. HAHA. Why? Because my mom allows me to! :P And she encourages it so I look more...girlish. Bahahah... Thanks to mummy, I don't turn into this.

:) All wrapped up feeling supa hot inside. Eeeeeyyyyeerrrrr!!
Though...I would NEVER look fat in that :) Its black and you can't see anything ! woot! haha.

Anyways, I still will never dress in THAT. Not now, not ever! Aww come on, shorts and mini skirts and fun~ Dresses are gorgeous. Singlets are a must-have in all our closets!!

This is how Blake Lively rocks her closet and this is how I wanna rock mine too! XD

Being sick sucks.

2011-04-13T22:07:00.001+08:00

BEING SICK SUCKS. Especially when my finals are closing in. UGH!! CURSES!!

I wanna have fun again

Another tiny post for girls =)

2011-04-11T04:02:00.001+08:00

有一種女人嫁給誰都幸福

我見到明依是在好友的聚會上，一個35歲的女人，中等姿色，學歷也不高，卻嫁了個氣宇軒昂的好老公，他據說是碩士，後來做傢俱生意發了家。結婚10年，有一個粉雕玉鐲的小女兒，好友說完後半妒半羨地感歎，嫁到這麼好的男人，明依真幸福，我笑著不說話，想來她的故事不會這麼簡單。

幸福能力1：會做菜，會煲湯，會踏實過日子

明依嫁給老公的時候，他還是大學裏年輕的講師，站在講臺上激情飛揚地大談犬儒主義和叔本華，台下的女生們多數是沖著英俊老師來的，明依全身心的投入和迷戀這份感情，那時候她當然不會去考慮臺上氣質非凡的男人名下只有一間20平米的筒子樓宿舍。
婚後的現狀雖然不盡如人意，但如膠似漆的愛情可以彌補一切。小倆口一起在公共用水間洗衣服，一人一頭擰床單；在煙薰火燎的樓道裏做飯，飯後老公陪著她邊洗碗邊聊天；週末手拉手去看場電影或是回婆家吃頓飯。
明依覺得小日子雖然清貧，但一樣覺得幸福甜蜜，她把眼光從簡陋的家，樸素的衣裳，自己光禿禿的脖子手指上移開，每月精打細算的捂著手中不多的錢把日子過好，明依做得一手好菜，老公最愛喝她熬的湯，排骨燉蓮藕，鯽魚蘿蔔絲，芋頭娃娃菜… 每次喝的肚兒圓圓才放下碗。看到老公簡單滿足的微笑，明依覺得，這就是幸福。

幸福能力2：對婚姻別期望太高，少抱怨，少糾結於小事

懷上孩子的時候，老公的事業剛起步，天天周旋于客戶和朋友間，請客吃飯，陪酒，陪玩，每晚不到深更半夜回不了家。明依非常難過，面前的男人雖然還是熟悉的面孔，卻好像完全換了一個靈魂。他沒時間對著大肚子的老婆噓寒問暖，沒精力回應老婆的溫存關切，在生活的殘酷考驗下，他還原了男人愛事業不愛美人的本質，簡直就是一個工作狂。明依覺得自己的溫柔克己完全白費了，眼前的男人已經不是當初自己深愛的那一個，再勉強下去還有什麼意義？
定居美國的大姐回來看她，明依哭著告訴她：老公給不了我想要的幸福，我想離婚。
大姐緘默，第二天給她帶來一本美國專欄女作家的暢銷小集子，裏面有一句話讓明依有所觸動：
有一種女人，不管她嫁的是建築工人還是國會議員，她都有能力讓自己過得幸福。
沒錯，女人的幸福，為什麼要靠男人給呢？每個女人，都應該有讓自己，讓家庭幸福的能力。大著肚子的明依向父母求援，請媽媽過來幫忙買菜做飯，照顧這個自己無力兼顧的小家。她強迫自己不去想煩心的事情，每天吃好睡好，安心養胎；她不再等老公夜歸，不再像以前那樣每天纏著他問長問短，不再拿雞毛蒜皮的小事去煩他；在他偶爾有空的時間裏讓他攙著自己散步，彼此取笑著對方為孩子取名字。也怪了，一天天平靜安穩地過去，原本覺得天昏暗地的生活，漸漸變得陽光燦爛起來。
女兒快 3歲了，他們搬了新家。錢都花在房款上了，明依雇了個油漆匠把牆一刷，購置了簡單的傢俱，就這樣湊合著先搬進去了。老公每天回家都能看到一點點新的變化：客廳裏別致的燈罩是用硬紙殼蒙上米色暗紅碎花圖案的棉布做的；自己到海南出差帶回來的椰子，吃剩的硬殼被巧妙改造成了造型可愛的小豬撲滿；捲筒紙用完了，明依給簡芯細緻地裹上了一層米白色亞麻細布，教女兒用蠟筆塗鴉，畫出五彩的虹，綠的樹，藍色的河流，金色的太陽公公，這樣一個DIY小筆筒擺在書桌上，做爸爸的每次看到心裏都暖洋洋的。一個原本平凡的空間在明依手裏漸漸改頭換面，一天比一天豐富，一天比一天有情趣。

幸福能力3：培養自己的興趣愛好，照顧好自己在前，不冷落家庭在後

湯妮的出現差點兒擊碎了明依的幸福夢想。她是老公生意上的重要合夥人之一，年輕，家境富裕，有生意頭腦和管理能力，帶著一種咄咄逼人的美和氣勢。湯妮明顯地向老公表示好感，根本不在乎他的已婚身份，男人到了這種地步，不免有些心猿意馬，曖昧不明。很多人都來向明依告密，有的是打抱不平，有的純粹為了看熱鬧。明依卻還是和以前一樣，看自己的書，種自己的花花草草，照顧剛上小學的女兒。
在老公回家的時候，給他送上舒服的拖鞋；在他起床洗漱的時候，提前給他擠好牙膏。她對烹調的興趣越發濃厚，三不五時來些新奇的花樣。比如把香蕉切成小塊，澆上優酪乳，然後裹上全麥餅乾屑；去鳳凰旅遊的時候學會了用蒜葉和新鮮芫菜加乾辣椒熗炒；跟婆婆學會了做四川泡菜。種種小創意讓在外面吃慣了大魚大肉的老公回到家來就會忍不住多添一碗飯，贊一句，還是家裏的菜好吃。
明依把週末的時間精心策劃起來，老公有空的時候，帶上孩子，開車到附近的農家樂，踏青，看紅葉，老公沒空陪她，她就自己帶著女兒去兒童樂園，或是看最新上映的動畫大片。每次娘倆兒都開心的手牽手回家，女兒歡聲笑語，明依紅光滿面。老公終日擔心，如果明依提出那個難堪的問題，他不知道該如何回答。但明依開開心心地過自己的日子，從來不多問一句。
當然明依也有變化：她恢復了幾分婚前活潑可愛的樣子，穿衣打扮越發精緻。她參加了瑜伽課，學打網球；她組織姐妹旅行團去尼泊爾，回來容光煥發，給女兒帶回一條手工繡花的小裙子，送老公一個烏木鑲銀的煙灰缸；她甚至開始學習英文，居然可以磕磕巴巴地和美國網友聊天！
這個跟了自己10年的女人身上原來還有那麼多自己不瞭解的特質和能量，這一切都讓他感覺既陌生又熟悉，並深深為之吸引。湯妮的事情居然就這麼慢慢地淡了，沒了，女友去看明依，崇拜無比地追問她處理方式。明依笑說，見怪不怪，其怪自敗。
以前我老覺得嫁個好老公就能幸福，現在看起來，女人的幸福不是靠男人給的。
女人要有讓自己幸福的能力。

熱愛生活，照顧好家庭，不冷落自己，這才是女人真正的幸福。
這話有道理，一個家庭幸不幸福，80%以上取決於女主人。
有能力讓自己幸福，有能力給男人幸福，才是聰明的好女人。

Although it’s a lil long but trust me girls =) It’s worth reading.

Women, live YOUR life

Cough cough

2011-04-11T03:37:00.001+08:00

Been coughing for like a few days now =( WHY WON’T IT STOP!! T___________T I sound like a freakin dude now!! OMG == And because of that, my weekend was sorta a waste == Went out on Friday night but slept like a pig at home for the WHOLE SATURDAY. I know!! Wasted sial!! T__________________T so damn sad la weh… I want my saturday back! I ‘d rather sleep my friday away and go out on Saturday . URGH.

I just realized that… I HAVE NOT SHOPPED FOR TWO MONTHS NOW! woot!! I'm actually quite proud of myself =) Well, since last year or…was it the year before that, I sorta..was..super into clothes shopping and shit. But now, NADA. NONE. I DID NOT SHOP! Yeay meee <3 <3 ^^

Just FYI, I didn’t shop because firstly, I don’t have enough money in my bank for me to go crazy shopping right now and secondly, I NEED TO FRIGGIN LOSE WEIGHT. Yeahhh…Everyone goes like, “no you don’t !” “You’re just right!” and bla bla bla. I know myself best. I am HUGE in size and no doubt FAT. Thus, I REALLY need to lose weight. Or I’ll never look good in those dresses and Imma go emo everytime I see a dress that I really really like. =(

Waiting for THIS .

Didn’t wanna spoil your day or mood so I’m just gonna wish you a belated one here. Hope you’ll see this

Happy belated birthday my dear friend. You’re an awesome person and nothing will change that. Hope you had a hell of a birthday there and I wish you all the best in your future undertakings. Hope to see you when you get back. Once again, happy belated birthday awesome

When god closes one door for you, he’ll always leave a window open =)

2011-04-07T22:51:00.001+08:00

Its Chiu Ling’s birthday today and we threw her surprises on BOTH nights! Awesome right?? But pity the girl, she had to endure two days of eekyy dirty surprises. Day 1, her FACE enjoyed the luxury of secret Recipe’s Chocolate Indulgence . Day 2, it was flour ALL OVER her. Sighh.…. it was fun for us but Im sure it wasn’t for her. Sorry Chiu Ling!! >.< But I do hope that you enjoyed the surprises =D

The semester’s coming to and end and so assignments, tests and presentations are pilling up. SIGH. And with the weather going hot and cold like this, EVERYONE’S falling sick!!! UGH! Im like having constant headaches and on-and-off fevers plus minor sore throat. And because of all these, I have skipped numerous classes this week =( I skipped all my classes for today AND my duty too!! WHAT AM I GONNA DO WITH ME!! T_______________T

A mashup photo made by Jo for me birthday last year!! <3<3 Super nice right!!! LOVE HER SHOUUUU MUCH!!! Super talented sial….=)

Thanks JO!! XOXOXO <3

Note to self : Its time I resumed to my previous blogging style. I don’t know what Im blogging nowadays. Do you?

Dreams

2011-04-03T02:25:00.001+08:00

3 consecutive nights. 3 different dreams. All heart warming and heart breaking at the same time . =/

Random stuff:

I miss this kid!! Although I’ve only been with him for like..less than 30 minutes, but still HE IS SHOUUUU ADORABLE!!!!

EVERYONE LOVED THE KID!! And he loved us a lot toooo =D see that smileee??? *melts* Instant fame for that boy =)

Honestly, I have to say, after enjoying complete relaxation and pure crazy, you’d wanna go back for more

Time’s the key to everything

2011-03-29T03:00:00.001+08:00

Well, the hectic college life starts again now that the weekend’s ova. =/

Time is really the key to everything huh… I hope in time, everything’ll be alright. For you and for me

Out with the girls from Sunway and Yanting!!! Theme for the day : DRESSES AND HEELS. ( By Loh tze Lin)

I think only YanTing fully FIT the theme.

Tze Lin: dress &slippers (sorta) Me: Dress and CONVERSE <3 Tin: Shirt + SKIRT == and heels. =/

YES. ME IS PHAT (HATE MY ARM)

and then CAMPFIRE!!!!!

2011 NDC Girl Guides Campfire . Theme: 360 degrees Revival <3

EVERYTHING was set up by the NDC Girl Guides. *SALUTE*

I DID NOT EDIT THIS PICTURE.

VERY ugleh photo of me but who cares XD We LOVE the deco!!

<3 YANTINGGGG

An escape from assignments and troubles. =/

p/s: Im sorry I didn’t try hard enough.

IM A CAM-WHORE

2011-03-25T13:41:00.001+08:00

Economics assignment was due today, so as I didn’t spend much time on it for the past few days, I had to stay up the whole night JUST to finish the 3 quarters that I have not touched at all. AND, since I came home yesterday night, I had less distractions and thus more focus on my work.

HOWEVER, as I *ehem* am a very weird person whereby I have to mess around with some stuff every now and then just to de-stress, I found …. THE ULTIMATE CRYSTAL EYE WEBCAM!! woot!! XD and Yes, I started camwhoring when my assignment was STILL not done.

Guilty as charged. Hey, I WAS STRESSED OUT OKAY. =/

Then when I transferred the pictures, I found THIS! HAHAHA!!!!

ssshhhhhhhh..Don’t let him know Im posting it here

My lovely brother <3 Want his number??

UGH

2011-03-25T03:04:00.001+08:00

Hectic weeks. Assignments, tests, homework, lectures, duties, and volleyball. These are the things that fill my mind, causing me to have no time for leisure or more. sigh. I miss those days where I just slack and do nothing in my room, waiting for time to pass.

I miss the conference in Penang. It was truly an escape that I needed.

难过了

2011-02-22T02:17:00.001+08:00

难过了，

不要告诉别人，

别人永远都不可能明白在你的立场上的感受

难过了，

静静的蹲下来抱着自己，

让眼泪尽情的洒落

难过了，

拿着镜子看看此刻的自己，

让真实浮现眼前

难过了，

默默的将自己隐藏起来，

让空虚掩盖一切

难过了，

闭眼倾听周围的声音，

让自己沉浸在喧嚣中

难过了，

不必告诉别人，

自己的悲伤为何要别人也承担呢

难过了，

可以假装快乐，

和别人一起兴奋时就能遗忘了自己

难过了，

仍然安慰别的伤心者，

你会发现自己也在受益，

当局者迷而已，

难过了，

听音乐，

就让音乐把它带走

有谁不曾难过

有谁还会记得

过去的不再从来

又何必去苦想

忘掉…

用微笑渲泄悲伤

自己的伤悲除了自己别人永远体会不到，

心里的烦恼自己压下去，好好对自己，

来到这个世界不容易，

让自己洒脱一点，

哪怕是假装的，

也要伪装成快乐的那一个.............

Saw this on facebook and I just thought it’d be better sharing it here.

A lot of people told me that I am such a strong girl. Well, Im not strong. At all I think. Im just… like what it said, pretending, putting a mask on so I’d feel happy. At least on the outside.

I wonder if Toothpaste helps with sun burns…

2011-02-20T19:18:00.001+08:00

Today, I had my volleyball tournament from morning till afternoon. We won one match and got ourselves into the quarter finals but…. sighhhh…. oh well…I can just say that we need more practice. Since we were out in the hot sun for the whole day,I came back with a not-so-nice tan.

Hot red cheeks that hurt

After my bath, I thought to myself “hmm…I need whitening mask ASAP! “So…….since I didn’t have any whitening masks with me , I decided to try ..something…new! LOL..

This is a tool we use in our daily lives to clean our teeth! It whitens our teeth and brightens our smile! <3 I loveeee toothpaste

My theory : toothpaste whitens the teeth. Meaning it has whitening effects right? Why not try it on my skin??

YES. I applied it on the areas that were BURNING hot and TADA!

HAHAHHAHAHAHA!!!

I know they’re funny but what the heck. They’re pretty comfy on the skin…icy cold feeling and! I smell really nice! MINTYYYY <3<3

Bahaha…. I’ll tell you if they work the next time because Im still having em on

Anyways, Girls, you did great today Im shouuuu proud of us!!! <3 I’ll try to relax a lil more when I go up there the next time cz you guys ALWAYS tell me I look sooooo nervous up there. Oh! My face is …. sorta always pale so…. yeahh..they just get a lil paler when I get a little nervous. NO biggie The next time, we going home with nothing less than a third placing alright ? "

Im back after God knows how long

2011-02-19T19:00:00.001+08:00

Well hello. Im back again. Imma start off with the blog post I promised since last year, my birthday post. But its gonna be mainly pictures so enjoy!

Celebration of my 19th Birthday started at 12.00 am on that very day Thanks to my fellow co-workers of INTIMA <3

I was just done with my Volleyball tournament and I had to rush back to INTIMA all smelly and all cz there was a meeting on the night before. But it was all WORTH IT

Then my buddies since the first day in INTI gave me a surprise with Muffins

(excluding Daniel )

And a couple more from the previous D2-20 (Joe, Carl, Kenny, Naim, Sailesh etc) <3 awesomeee people that puts a smile on my face when I dearly needed one

Then there was the four cute guys from Indonesia (Meo, Jayamin, Kono, Pieter!) who created a MASSIVE mess for me XD

Three surprises on the first 5 hours of 29/10/2010. Then my BELOVED classmates got the party ball rolling again after class!

7.30pm, Mister Chong Yew Han took me round and round town blindfolded which we then ended up at a friend’s house right next to my hostel! It was an awesome AWESOME partay with lotsa food, fun and many many more.

That IS NOT A NICE CAKE. It goes onto faces and not into tummies ==

I GOT CAKED FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE!!! eeeekkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(imma monster @#$!@#$%^&*)

But I still had a great time with these guys <3

Awesome

And before the clock stroked twelve, these people threw me a last surprise <3

VOLLEYBALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I didn’t expect ANY of em to know my birthday as we have known each other for not long but thanks to Facebook, (I guess) they made the effort to throw a nice warm surprise for me I LOVE YOU GUYSSSSSS

Every year , every birthday I always repeat the same words “ this is the best birthday ever” . Honestly speaking, I have no idea on how to rate em! Every birthday is special to me! They’re all as good, as awesome, as unique in each possible way!! I don’t expect a HUGE celebration but I just like people remembering this special day of my life. A big hug when we meet and a simple wish of “Happy birthday girl! “ would be enough! Imagine a day filled with HUGS AND WISHES How cool is that!

But of course, the celebrations that each of you have thrown for me before were all really really really great and I really appreciate every single one of it. Because of them, I was never alone on that special day. Till now, just blogging about it has put a HUGE smile on my face

I LOVE YOUUUUU <3 ALL OF YOUUU!!!!

Im back=)

2011-02-01T05:29:00.000+08:00

Yes yes...I admit this. I HAVE abandoned this for such a loooong time!!! Gawsh... Hello everyone...=) Happy Chinese New Year!! Its the year of the rabbit so... may you all have an awesome rabbit year? LOL..
Anyways, this post's gonna be pretty emo... I don't know where to express this so yeahh....
Lets see...this year, I've had a pretty good kickstart. Met new people, did new things that I've never done before, experienced something new :) This year was supposed to be a pretty shitty year for Goats (1991 year borns) but it seems to be a pretty good year for me =) The only thing that's putting me into a dilemma is this. I don't know where this is heading to. I want to know but I have no guts to find out. Please tell me that it will end good.....Because if it doesn't, it'll be a hell of an experience. Oh god, please help me.......

Claryn Tan’s birthdayy

2010-11-16T01:27:00.001+08:00

Before I blog mine, I shall blog CLAYPOT’S FIRST! XD

Its November 16th and our dearrrrr Claryn Tan aka Chlorine aka Claypot aka HELLO KITTY turns 19 this year~~ yeay~~

So Happy birthday youuu…

Thanks for being a good roommate, thanks for being an awesome, good, best friend to ya roomie here.Always listening to my nagging and talking…Must be annoying..== sorry but thanks for tolerating!! Two more years, and Im gone so DON’T WORRY!=D

HOPE YOU LIKE THIS PRESENT!! Hahaha!! I HAVE to post this up because …well….Im going to need EVERYONE to know…XD

Yes. because of you , I am so shocked of the amount of cream in OREO. YUCK.

Squashed them into paste. >.<

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KITTY~~~~~<3<3<3

Bill Clinton’s coming to town!!

2010-11-11T02:15:00.001+08:00

Yes. I have homework to do, finals coming in two weeks and yet I am blogging. But I HAVE BLOG ABOUT THIS so books, forgive me please?

A very pretty invitation letter sent by INTI for??

Oh yeahhh!!!! BILL CLINTON’S COMING TO INTI!! WOOHOOOOO~~~ And mua, me , yours truly, YES I am invited to see him!!! <3<3 Booya!!!

Oh yeahhhh (Ron Stoppable style=D)..My name printed both INSIDE and OUTSIDE the invitation letter

Without this letter, not even our prime minister can enter. I am SO PROUDDDD

I want a picture taken with Bill Clinton !! I want I want I want!! >.< Its not always that we get to be THIS close with someone with SO MUCH HISTORY you know.

Can I wear this to the talk? I look COOL =D

Angelababy!! Officially my favourite Asian girl!! =D

2010-11-06T22:30:00.001+08:00

This is the first time Im posting something that’ll make me seem like a total crazy lil fan.

This girl is Angela Yeung, aka ANGELABABY. A hongkong model and actress=)

She’s sooooo pretty isn’t she?

She can look really cute and really REALLY hot at the same time!! >.< *melts*

I saw her from 矮仔多情 and so I immediately googled her up. Her career started off by entering the modeling industry in the year 2007 and then she was a dancer in JAY CHOU’s concert in Hong Kong!!! <3<3

After that it was mainly catwalking, modeling and etc and just a few movies in line. None of her being something big though..I think….cz I don’t remember her…=P But anyways, my point is that she’s REALLY REALLY pretty . =D

Unfortunately some said that she had a plastic surgery before=(

But screw them… Whatever…. She looks natural to me.

Her website, www.loveangelababy.com=) Knock yourselves out!

One last picture before I go

eeeek!! Hottie alert!! XD

Am still waiting for my bday pics ..Sorweeee

xoxo

2010-11-06T18:19:00.000+08:00

【传说没有安全感的孩子会…】

1.会爱音乐，非常非常爱
2.怕黑，却习惯晚睡
3.隐藏真正的心事
4.喜欢有口袋的衣服，否则会不知道手放在哪里
5.习惯抱臂习惯冷战

6.会突然不知所措
7.喜欢窗户，喜欢角落，喜欢蜷缩
8.喜欢写字和阅读
9.莫名的孤单，无法抗拒的恐惧感
10.不爱说话或很爱说话

11.心事放在心里最温柔的地方，有一个自己的世界
12.自信的面对他人，因为怕别人看见自己的脆弱
13.神经非常敏感，总是多愁善感
14.心地善良，乐于帮助他人，同情弱小
15.会有几个可以交心的朋友，而且他们很可能会成为一辈子的朋友

16.哭的时候被别人看见的话，会极力的掩饰
17.会很在乎或者很无所谓
18.会舍不得自己难过，却无法改变
19.会希望很骄傲地活着
20.会突然难过很久很久，又突然没心没肺地笑

saw this on facebook. So are you one?

Birthday post will come up as soon as I have my pictures all posted up...==those people keeping my photos had better be fast!!! >.<

Busy

2010-10-31T21:20:00.001+08:00

I am really sorry people!! Unable to update my blog at the moment as Im kinda busy with my stuff lately but I promise to update you guys on my latest events ASAP so please read!!!=D

Events to be updated:

1. Volleyball matches. Our friendly match with New Era College which WE WON!!! and the competition at KTAR =)

2. Me birthday~~~~=D

Yes yes. So its gonna be quite a long post the next time. Thanks for READING!=D

XOXO

Volleyball traininggggg=D

2010-10-24T18:56:00.001+08:00

Volleyball training since last Thursday. TIRING but I think all these pain will be worth it in time to come! =D

INTI finally has a GIRL team thanks to US

WE ROCK!! Oh yeahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!

Our very first match on Thursday with New Era College!! >.<

Wish us LUCK!!!=D

Life’s a masquerade. And so they say

2010-10-23T03:59:00.001+08:00

Life’s a masquerade. And so they say..

Just had supper with my cousin and a couple of friends. Supper included McDonalds, Soccer, and Volleyball.=) awesomeee

Miss home. Miss hanging out with claypot, yanting and monkey=(

Btw, SORRY CLAYPOT!!!!! I REALLY DIDN’T MEAN IT!!!! SORRRRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY=((

XOXO

One year

2010-10-22T18:31:00.001+08:00

Currently listening to 1 litre of Tears’ songs=( So emo in INTIMA.

Volleyball training was intense yesterday and I woke up with my body aching EVERYWHERE! I’m not gonna complain because I volunteered.

I have to admit though. Kinda miss this sore+aching feeling but it sucks when I walk/sit/go up and down the stairs. CRAP.

Saturday, PHYSICAL TRAINING FOR NEXT WEEK’S COMPETITIONS!!!

LETS GO GIRLS!!!=D

One more year. One more year and I will look back with a smile and nothing else.

Maybe by that time, I’ll even smile at everything I see.

=) A smile for you. And a SMILE FOR ME.

xoxo

15TH INTIMA LEADERSHIP TRAINING CAMP

2010-10-20T18:42:00.001+08:00

Yepp..It’s the holidays now…Finally… and I’m home , away from all the troubles. =)

15th INTIMA’s Leadership Training Camp is finally over too so Phew! *wipes sweat off forehead* Although there were tough times throughout the camp but I’m glad it had a nice ending=)

A birthday celebration for the October babies=) ME ME ME!!=D

Being game master for the WINKZ game!=D Kinda yelled a lot throughout the 3 days..=S

Damn slim mia zha bo dare to say she fat?! wanna die lo!!!

Claypot played!!! T.T But I missed my chance…sighhh…stupid girl problem. CURSE YOU!

Anyways, I have to say sorry to Group 6, the Superheroes. I wasn’t much of a good group member this time. Was too carried away with my stuff ended up not spending any time with you people;Sighhhh…If only there was another chance, I would give anything to be one with the group =) >.<

WHO ARE WE?????? WE ARE THE SUPERHEROES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~~~~~

Blue nailss~~

2010-10-12T16:59:00.001+08:00

An accident on 10th of October , 2010, at Simpang Ampat, Malacca caused an impact in many people’s lives. Some lost their family and some lost their friends. Some who survived might have lost a limb or two or might even be paralysed for the rest of their lives. One bus loses control and hits four other vehicles. One accident killed nearly all of them. I’m sorry for those who’re involved . I really am. To those who survived the accident, Be strong. A whole new life awaits. And for those who didn’t , rest in peace. Maybe our maker misses you a lot thats why He brought you back. *hugs* to all. =)

Nail art time! =D Did this in class to both the girls and THE GUYSSS~~ hehe

Awesome meal!

2010-10-12T03:25:00.001+08:00

An awesome dinner delivery!!=D

yummmayyy~~~ Nothing beats IKEA meatballs delivery!!!! <3<3 mmmmmmmmmmmmmm~~~~~~

yes. 15 meatballs and a heck lotta fries.

I AM FAT

awesomeeeeee~~~~~~

Thanks a lot!!! ;-)

Kenny’s birthday!!

2010-10-09T02:48:00.001+08:00

MISTER POTATO IS OLD!!!

Happy birthday uncle!=D

I still do NOT know how old you are…(embarrassed) =/

Now this is what I call an awesome outing with a family

2010-10-05T02:23:00.001+08:00

An awesome outing with my new found AWESOME family!=D

The awesome family without Nocco and I . Me was photographer..=(( damn bad photography skills right?? I know…

The awesome gurls in the family with our beloved Monk!=D We love him soooo much! =D

He is one of ZE best photographers I’ve ever met!=)) thanks to him, I get all the nice pictures for this trip! hehe

FAT LEGS!!!!! FAT BODAYY!!! FAT ARMS!!! T.T but nice picture=)

Thanks wo xiong!!

The only time I’ll be soooo girlish..

2010-10-03T19:34:00.001+08:00

The only time you’ll see Su Zian all dressed up, being such a GIRL is when she’s with her Joanna.

Proof:

This girl.

Turned me into this. Laugh all you want lar! ==

You don’t have to hide your laugh Claryn Tan. I KNOW YOU TOO WELL!

and This. Ze fighter look

Or ze bad gurl look!

Alas, the school girl look.=) I kinda like this…=P

…so NOT me…OMGGGGGG….

And yeah, I decorated her a little too! hehe…

I’m not guilty on making her frown! It wasn’t meeee

Bad, sexc girl look. Lanci right?? =P

ALAS! The best costume of the night!! The SEXC cheongsam!!*whistles*

You have gotta thank me for this photo yen wei!! =P

Im not that good a photographer…gomen…. It was supposed to be realllllyyyyy SEXCCC

Hot and tough! ;-)

Yeah..she just had to do goofy stuff when she looks really hot.That’s Jo alright…LOL!

Yepp! Thats all!!

Although I hate to admit this but, LETS DO THIS AGAIN!!=D

Thank you joooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!1 MUACKSSS!!!Love you!!

From Wo Xiong.

2010-10-02T03:50:00.001+08:00

Although I miss this guy but….

Now I feel like KILLING HIM!

I shouldn’t talk next time… This is badddddd

Miss me hair

2010-10-01T22:17:00.001+08:00

Me hair was this short…

and then it grew a little longer

and then a little longer

and a little more longer…

and longer

AND LONGERRRR….

AND FINALLY!!! THIS LONG!!!! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

So…which suited me the best?? Tell me please??????

All work and No play makes Jack a dull boy!

2010-09-29T16:49:00.001+08:00

All work and NO PLAY makes Suzanne a dull gurl! =(

That’s why naughty me will stick to naughty me! =D

DIET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Daniel, Imma miss you !!! T.T

2010-09-24T02:08:00.001+08:00

He, is Daniel.

Daniel is my friend.

I’ve known him for not more than a year BUT

he’s a really great guy.

He’s never serious.

He’s always thinking out of the box.

He likes snooker A LOT!

He LOVES YANG a lot!!!

So,

We trust him .

We like to mess with him .

We eat a lot when we’re together !!( SABAH TRIP MADE ME FREAKING FAT)

and

WE LOVE HIM A LOT!!!!!

Daniel, take care when you go there alright!!!

MSN US !!!!

AND NEVER FORGET SALMON 2 KAY!!! Or I’ll slice you up and eat you Daniel! >.<

*hugs*

p/s: He has a photo of him in Elvis Presley’s costume when he was younger!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Damn cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^^

He also LOVES SNSD’S SUNNY!!!and K POP!

I AM F A T

2010-09-21T00:40:00.001+08:00

I AM F A T. This is a fact proven by A LOT OF PEOPLE. INTIMA people can be my witness. IT IS TRUE!!!! T.T

Call me fei po from now on.

Thank you.

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee=((

Back to the Jungle

2010-09-19T19:05:00.001+08:00

Year 1 Semester 2 starts! Mine started with OLE for the new September intake students=) Although the OLE this time was only two days, but I really had a lot of fun with them!=))

Being lifted by the newbies in the MIRROR game

Got drenched during the pool games!=(

Group 6 BENQ! <3 this group=D

Oh, and this OLE is going to be the last OLE with my dear WO XIONG=(((( T.T

Imma miss you!!!

Kota Kinabalu Part 2

2010-09-14T03:09:00.001+08:00

More stuff on our Kota Kinabalu trip!!=D

I think on that trip, I slept more than everyone else did..haha! That’s what they say~~=P

Sleeping…

Still sleeping..

Other than sleeping, I did a lot of OTHER things too!

Climbed a treeeeee!!! Which I’m pretty proud of~ Thanks to Mr.D.=)

Got stuck in a telephone booth

Caught a teeneee weeeneee crab . See it?? =D *chuckles*

Walked on some really high and scary bridge

stuck my head into some random fish tank. LOL

Had a little ‘fish spa’ at the waterfall~ (LOVE IT!!! LOVE THE PIC TOO!!! )

stuck my head into a Scuba Doo(something you use to walk in the sea and take pictures…Don’t ask me how . IDK)

Played a little arcade bball

Jumped around like a monkey here and there~

Firstly ALONE

Then with my pretty Sheeerrrweeeeennnn!!=D

Oh!! Did a little grocery shopping too! HAH.

Yepp..I guess that’s all I wanna update for today. =P

All photo credits to Mr.Chow Di Sheng and Miss Shereen Wong!! =D

Piranha

2010-09-11T05:08:00.001+08:00

A movie with lotsa hotties and lotsa bloody scenes. Don’t watch it if you can’t stand..blood and …really gross wounds.. Or else, you’ll end up like a dear friend of mine who nearly puked after the show! XD

Holiday at home

2010-09-07T16:18:00.001+08:00

Aaahhh…the holidays=)) Having so much fun with my gurls back here, I don’t feel like going back to INTI anymore!! >.<

Sing k~~

Visiting teachers

Eating~

Aihhh….

I AM FAT!!! I NEED TO GO ON A STRICT DIET!! AND EXERCISE!! T.T HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP

Back from Kota Kinabalu! Part 1

2010-09-01T23:55:00.000+08:00

Hey people!! So sorry for the delay on updating my blog…I was away as I had to attend Exco Camp and then I went for a trip to Sabah to visit my dear Shereen and Daniel~~~ =D
Firstly, Exco Camp!=D
Although unlike the other batches, our exco camp was held in college, we still had a wonderful time there! We had GRRRRREATTTT food, awesome bonding time and I have to say, I’m finally feeling the family in us 15th INTIMA Excos. =)) Great job guys~ Love you!!
*sorry..didn’t take much pictures there*
Secondly, Kota Kinabalu, Sabah trip!!!
This trip was with DeeDee, Yang , and Jao. 4 from West Malaysia meeting the Duo from East Malaysia. It was an awesome trip I can say. Daniel’s parents allowing all of us to crash at his place for the whole week, Daniel and Shereen bringing us everywhere , hunting for good food, spectacular places~ =)) Thanks a hell lot!!!!!
I shall start with Day 1!! =D
Day 1, 24th of August.
Four of us sat on Air Asia and headed for KK at 9.30 in the morning. =((I was soooo tired but excited at the same time~ Its my second time sitting in a plane so yeah… You can kinda figure out the feeling yourself. After being in the air for two and a half hours, we finally landed in Sabah!!=D My first thought of Sabah= THEY HAVE A HELL LOTTA TREES! Its not like East Malaysia where you see cars and buildings and cars and noise wherever you go! There, like DeeDee said, it feels nothing like Malaysia. I truly felt like I was on a very laid back, relaxing holiday. It felt exactly like I was on an island =) Really nice place.
Daniel and Shereen then brought us to an place where we had fish noodles for lunch!

Super fresh fish and chewy fishballs and awesome fish made noodles!!=D

Next stop, Damai. The place with THE BEST Bread I have ever tasted!!

They call it the roti kahwin. I know I know, we have it here too..But the bread itself is just soooo nice!!!!! The thickness of one piece of bread is equivalent to two pieces of our normal Gardenia or Hi 5 bread. However, it is much much softer, exactly like a sponge! <3 This is the food that I love the most in KK! We had it almost everyday …..=P

Its a MUST TRY food in KK!!

After tea, we headed back to Daniel’s place where Daniel’s mum, Mrs. Saw welcomed us with open arms. I had a room all to myself while the boys stayed in Daniel’s room. WEEEEE~~=D
Dinner was served at Daniel’s place as Mrs. Saw baked lasagne, fries and Cheese Cauliflower!!! OMG!! It totally explains why Daniel doesn’t eat outside food much in KK. HIS MUM IS A GREAT COOK!!!!! <3<3

Hungryyy????? I am!! OMG…I would love to have one noww!!! Lasagne <3<3
Cheese Cauliflower!!!<3<3 Mmmmmmmm~~~

Just for laughs =D

2010-08-19T07:47:00.000+08:00

Morning people~ Its 7.40 in the morning. Wondering why I'm up so early? Its cz I have to fetch my lil brother to school ...=.= sighh....There goes my sleep! Well, Im supposed to head back to sleep now actually but I've just heard the funniest thing on Hitz. Fm and I can't help myself to blog about it ! Ha ha!!! It is going to KILL most of you...TRUST ME !!

According to Hitz.Fm,
THE TOP TEN SEXIEST MAN ON THE PLANET!! THE PLANET!!
First in line is ....... He's going to be so cursed sial...LOL!
1.) ROBERT PATTINSON!!!! (hahahahhahah!!! I can't help to laugh in the car ..alone! Hahahaha!!! OMG!! He is NO WHERE near sexy man!! OMG...who are those who voted?!! )
2.) Taylor Lautner (well.....Reasonable...He has a hot bod~ =P)
3.) Ian something..Remembered it cz Ian's the name of one of the hitz.fm morning crew ...LOL
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6.) The dude that acted for Pirates of the Carrabien...forgot his name...I don't really see the sexiness in him actually..
7.) JUSTIN BIEBER!!! (LMAO!!!! OMG!! He is NO WHERE near sexy either!! He is worse worse MUCH MUCH worse than Robert Pattinson!! Wth lar .... Seriously , who is VOTING?! )
8.) Gerald Butler ( =(( So sad. I think Gerald Butler should be in one of the top...at least 5!! =(( I can't believe Justin Bieber is more sexy than he is! UGHHH...geli!!! )
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Forgot the others d...LOL
Anyways, you're free to comment at the side bar if you like~ XD I would love to see what you think about this. SERIOUSLY! haha

-just for laughs-

Year 1 Semester 1 Degree in Accounting ends.

2010-08-16T03:19:00.001+08:00

Ahh….Finally this semester has ended. I had been looking forward to this for quite sometime actually. One whole month of break for me.=)

My first programme for my semester break was SUNWAY TRIP WITH MY CLASSMATES!!! =D It was really really really fun!! Although only 14 of us went but we still had a lot of fun together!! We got to know each and everyone of our names XP and our classmates got really really close for the first time!!

Bachelors of Accounting, UH 2010 May intake First year, First semester students! 5A1 !!

The very colourful rainbow horse in INTI Subang. Haha!!

Everyone was dressed to go to Sunway Lagoon ! Weeeeee~~~ Unfortunately, we didn’t take any pictures because..I forgot my camera T.T So sad larrrr…There were so so many pretty pictures that could be taken there! Its my first time in Sunway Lagoon and ITS REALLY REALLY REALLY FUN!!! =DNo wonder its so crowded during the holidays.

OH!! Everyone should play the EXTREME PARK! Seriously, its worth the money.They have flying fox, the trampoline jumping thingy, the Malaysia’s one and only Bungy Jump and paintball!! Damn nice lar seriously!!

After playing under the hot sun for the whole afternoon, we then headed for steamboat where I ate A HELL LOT. I AM FAT ALREADY. FAT FAT FAT!! I ATE SO SO SO MUCH YOU KNOW!! T.T

I only ate the tom yam part. Their tom yam’s seriously awesome!! They taste much better than the tom yam in Nilai…and other places that I have been to.*drools*

The dude who doesnt eat spicy food like the awesome TOM YAM== wasted sial…

And then we had our night activities…Eherm! My first time!!!

The gurls =) sexayyyyy~~ XD

Well, I realized that I don’t have …the preps for an activity like that when I was packing… Mine’s mostly casual wear..sighh…shame on me…>.<

Hmm..I think that its not that bad of an experience actually.. Loud music, the alcohols, the dancing part…All fun fun fun~~ XD Got a lil dizzy at the end of the night..and so did everyone else!! Among all of us, there were only two GUYS that got really drunk. haha! Boooooo sama mereka lar! Worse than us girls! haha

Yes…BLURRR…Im sorry…this is what 5 megapixels does. =((

After a fun night, we all ended up sleeping at about….6 I think? LOL.. All Yew Han’s fault !=P

The next morning, it was ICE SKATING TIME!! At Sunway Pyramid! =) I miss Ice Skating..The last time I came with Claryn and we both were really lousy ice skaters…Trust me.XD And I still am today unfortunately…sighhhhh

I honestly have no idea what Chong Yew Han was doing with his hands. HAHAHA!! wthhh…

The dude with all the weird poses…LOL

Two days ended just like that. Aihhh…. I miss them… Hopefully these people will be with me throughout my years in INTI! =)

I DRANK CHIVAS REGALLLLLL!!! WOOOTTTTT!!!

OLE

2010-08-02T23:14:00.001+08:00

OLE.

Its amazing how within 24 hours , we all got to know each other! I guess thats what OLE does… bring people together..=)

August 2010 intake for Diploma and AUP students.=)

AWESOME BUNCH OF PEOPLE!!

<3 the facilitators~ (those in Orange shirts!!=P)

Finals are in a week…UGGGGGHHHH……How how how?? Im getting FATTER and STUPIDER!!>.<

Inception

2010-07-26T02:41:00.000+08:00

I just watched the movie Inception and it is a real THRILLER!! The sound effects , the scenes, the story line… All of them were awesome!! I think the best thing about this movie is the story line. Inception isn’t like Twilight or … any other movies because the main thing in the movie isn’t it’s actors and actresses! Its the story line! How it brings you to think every single minute while watching the movie. You would be counting which dream you are in now, whose dream you are in, how is the dream going to end, how the “subconcious” in that dream is going to react and ARE YOU STILL IN THE DREAM? It confuses your mind, gets you to think it through and you can never expect what is going to happen next! That, is the best part of the movie. Even till the end of the movie, it got me wondering, is this the dream? Or is it a reality? Is he, the main actor going to …die??

This movie got my attention from the very beginning till the very end of it. And so, people, if you are the kind of person that enjoys thrillers, excitement, mazes, and adventure, INCEPTION is the movie to watch!! Trust me!!!

p/s: I have no idea how Melvin could fall asleep in between!! Gahhhhh….Melvinnnn==

Inception, a movie of dreams and reality.

I have flushed you out of my system for good now and that’s thanks to you actually. Thank you. You may not be the ideal relationship guy for me anymore, but you will always remain as a good friend to me. Although I did say I would try to be nice to her, but just fyi, she’s still not trustworthy to me. But, I can see that she is treating you really nice and I think that she might be worth your trust and love. That’s all I have to say. Good luck.

Xoxo..You still have my trust as a friend . Just fyi.

I’m an honest girl. So shut up and leave me alone.

2010-07-24T04:21:00.001+08:00

I’ve never been rude. When someone smiles, I do smile back, even if it is someone I do not know. When someone talks to me, I do talk to them. So yeah..do the math yourself. If you know me well enough, you should know that I don’t like to pretend. I hate people pretending in front of me too and I can sense if they are. Sorry if I'm offending you in any way but maybe you should look things from a bigger point of view. Open your eyes and ears and ask around. It’ll help you know someone better. Know me better too. =) All the best.

Not a poker face. Even the mask I have is pretty!! See that masquerade mask???

My blog NEVER lies. You can tell who I am from what I write up here . If I don’t like you, you’ll know. Oh yes. you’ll definitely know. If you feel guilty when you read what I write, then yes, IT IS TALKING ABOUT YOU. And btw, there are hardly people who manages to appear in my dislike list if you didnt know, so if you’re one, and you’re trying to change my perception towards you, you’re going to have to change or don’t bother trying.

And, leave me out of your world okay. A person’s decision is mainly based on one’s self. So, if the person decides to do something, no matter what the others say, he/she will follow his/her heart.

I wished I hadn’t met you. One week. Two months. And I thought..hah. What was those actually.. Want to answer my question?Well, maybe its just fate.. It’s telling me that you were never the one for me.

Pay Fong 2.

2010-07-21T18:30:00.001+08:00

My one and only class picture when I was back in standard 6. Pay Fong 2. My last primary school that I went to . I went there in July 2003. Haha… I think I was the latest transfer student there. Weird girl transferring there when UPSR was just four months away. LOL.. Even so, that place changed me. The time I was there was my most rebellious stage in my life. I was a totally different girl…Trust me!! Change 180 degrees about 2 weeks after I got there and changed back when I left. Haha. You CANNOT image how bad I was people. XD But anyways, it was one of the most unforgettable times in my life and I appreciate it=)

Believe it or not, this class was the LAST class in school. and I, hehe.. was in it~ SPOT ME!=P

Student body… haha..Hello more haters and troubles and responsibilities… and hello AWESOME resume~~ hehe

Happy birthday Daddy!!

2010-07-20T02:03:00.001+08:00

20th of July has arrived!!=D Happy happy birthday daddy!!! Muacks!!! I love you~~

You have no idea how much I love you.

I love you for raising me

I love you for caring for me

I love you for doting me like I’m your little princess

I love you for being the one that consoles me when I was young as I was a huge cry baby

I love you for always carrying me around like a baby until I was 9.

I love you for lifting me high up when I said ”carry high high” when I was younger.

I love you for carrying me back to bed when I fall asleep on the couch when before I got too heavy for you. *blushes*

I love you for being patient all the time . No matter when I was young and cried not to go to school, until I grew older and always wanted to go out, and now when I still give you headaches all the time.

I love you for being the most understanding one in the family.

I love you as we always have these father daughter talks and jokes on the way back home.

I love you as you always put on the beary, omg…super adorable face when I manja you.

I love you as you are SHY! Haha! Admit it daddy! When I give you a random hug from behind, you shove me off with a smile on your blushing face. Its the same face you give when I go “daddyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy” *puppy eyes*. Fortunately for me, only I can use it in the house .Haha.

I love you as I have your genes. LOL

Strong character. Stubborn. Jaga muka. Loves to be around people but tends to be quiet at times. Emotional especially when we’re stressed out. Like to do things our way. Prefers to solve problems first handed and not delay it. Can never stand being stuck in the middle when making a decision. Loves sleeping more than anything we do. Loves to laze around. and MANY MANY MORE that I can’t finish listing them down…

Anyways, thank you daddy!! Thank you for everything. You are a grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrreat husband according to mummy and an AWESOME, COOL dad to all of us!! Even the little yoong xin!! Muackkssss!!!!!!!! You are like my husband model. LOL! I want my husband to be just like you in the future!!!=D

MY DADDY <3<3 Mr.Choo Sin Hwa. Isn’t he just cute and charming???=D

ME LOVE DADDY

AAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-07-19T00:43:00.001+08:00

AAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What emotions do to you..>.<

I CUT MY OWN FRINGE…>.<

Omg…I have no idea how I look now…urghh..I deeply regret it..>.<

LOOONNNNGGGG fringe to

T.T COMMENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The hope will only last till 12am tonight.

2010-07-18T18:22:00.001+08:00

Rain was pouring out my window since the moment I got up. Is this a sign? Maybe he’s mourning for the mistake? LOL..

One year ago, something happy happened. Something that was worth smiling for.. I can remember clearly how it happened.How I reacted. Haha. It must have been the most unusual answer you have ever heard and that was first time I gave someone such a weird answer too..haha! It just happened you know. I remember it like it was just yesterday when it happened.

This day, I was supposed to post something really happy. Something that would give everyone a diabetic but life’s a bitch. When you look forward to something, life takes it away. And when you hope that the day would never come, it just does. Hah. July 18th. I’ve made up many lies for this day..My lie ends today. The lie I told myself ends today.

I wanted to ask you out for coffee…You know ..For old times sake..But then someone let me realize something. He asked me, what for? What’s the point? What am I going to say to you? LOL.. Those were very good questions. What was I going to say to you anyways. I don’t know at all.

Stop raining would you… You’ve been raining for the whole day… Honestly, you’re not helping at all God. =/ I don’t like today..==

Back in high school..Haha..

Time flies~

To cut my fringe or not to cut my fringe?

2010-07-16T02:44:00.001+08:00

TO CUT MY FRINGE OR NOT TO CUT MY FRINGE???????

Eeeeeeeeeeeee!! Aunty look!!

HELLOOOOOOOO =D

Someone’s wedding ceremony

2010-07-13T01:01:00.001+08:00

Last Saturday, I attended my dad’s friend’s son’s wedding lunch. Well, don’t bother asking me about what was going on at the wedding lunch because I have NADA. No idea of what was going on there. LOL. I was playing with my darling the whole time =P But anyways, it was a grand wedding and they served really awesome food like

THIS!!! yuummm….fyi, its lobster meat, scallops and prawns and I forgot what else. =D It was just plain awesome.

Anyways, congrats to the new coupld, Alvin and Lilie!=D

the only picture I have of the bride and groom..*blushes*

To me, that day was not about them. It was all about my darling and I!!=D I miss him soooooo much !!! He’s THE CUTEST, SWEETEST, MOST ADORABLE, MOST HANDSOME, MOST CHARMING GUY I have ever met in my life!! <3 I am just soooooooooooo in love with him!! In fact, I was in love with him the moment he was born.. >.<

Im sure a few of you missed him too right?? =)

Muacks!!!!!! Adorable Choo Yong Xin!!! <3

The angel would just not let me have a decent picture of him..aiyaiyai…

Drinking like nobody’s business… *giggles* He’s just so cute..>.<

Same goes for eating…LOL

Playing with the decorations on the food like its his too..haha..My angel…I just love him so much..

Okay..up to here, its all about him…

From here onwards it’ll still be him, but him as THE PHOTOGRAPHER!!!=D Trust me, it was all him and none of US. =)

Taking his mom’s pic…=)

Then me=D yeah…A lil wobbly but hey! He’s 3 ~ Good enough for me~=D

His pretty mum again=)

My dad!!=D The grandpa that loves him the most~~

YES. Its me again..He snapped this when we were in the car, he was alone at the back and he insisted to take a pic of me. He’s like, “Gu(aunt), eeeeeee(baby talk: asking me to show me teeth and smile)”

Aaaahhh…so cute right!!>.< I miss him now…=(

Playful lil angel trying to blow the candle out ..see his expression? SO ADORABLE!!!>.<

Nom…Just focus on his face..=)

Mom and son decides to pay attention to the candle instead of me..SOBS…But pretty nice picture don’t you think? Family love=)

Another nice mother son pic=)

And I present to you, his parents! =D Yeah..My brother is a lucky man to have a such a pretty wife and a cute lil angel as his son.

The best family picture ever!!

Unfortunately, he’s going to stay in Johor with his parents forever .=( I miss him =( I miss playing with him when I get back to Malacca, I miss hearing him laugh, him hugging me, patting me , kissing me all over my face when I pretend to cry. Sometimes he feels more like a loving big brother when I feel very down. When I need someone to hug, someone to just sit there and let me lean on and not move, my nephew senses it and just sits there quietly accompanying me . Isn’t he just a sweet sweet guy?? I wish he’ll remain like this till forever.>.< His girlfriend would be the luckiest girl alive !! OMGGG…<3

Mommy loves him

Daddy loves him

And obviously I looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee him and he looooooooooooooooooooves me too!!=D

Isn’t he just adorable in that suit?? My lovely charming little angel..=)

I feel like a Rose. Nice on the outside but thorny when you get close. So don’t hurt youself.

2010-07-09T03:06:00.001+08:00

I fee l different now. My sensitivity towards my own actions has decreased by a lot. And so people told me that I bring thorns in my words, if you understand what I mean. I think its the dislikes I have in me that is making me like that. Defensive. I try to defend myself so much that I don’t realize that at the same time, I’m hurting people. To these people, I would like to apologize sincerely. I really don’t mean it but it just happens. I’ll try to control , I’ll try to remove the barrier but I have no idea how to do it so it might take some time. It is going to take a long time for me to open up as in really open up, but no matter what, I will try.

I hope you will understand.

Cupcakes I bought some time ago. Super pretty and yummy~~ Tastes very butter-ish though…>.< FATTENINGGGG

Yummyyy…you want?? =P

Curly~~~♥♥♥

2010-07-07T14:24:00.001+08:00

I ♥ braids. I don’t like going around with them , but I like them. =) Their after effects are just awesome~~~

With this, I can get this!! (scroll down)

wavy/curly hair~~~♥♥♥

Sorry for the mirror..*blushes*

Aaahh!! Curly monster! *giggles*

I just loveeeeeeeee the waveeeeeee >.< So tempted to curl it now..>.<

Don’t blame me for posting so many pics….Im a gurl! Camwhoring is my nature!! Especially when something new happens! =D

So so so so so so so so soooooo???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? How is it???????? OMG ….Claryn , watcha think?? You saw the actual hair..Do you think it suits me???>.<

I am enjoying my college life to the MAX

2010-07-07T02:01:00.001+08:00

Mmmm~~ Things have been great for the past two weeks=) I shall start story telling from the first weekend.

Well, last last weekend, I worked for INTI as a student helper! =D I met a lotta new friends and earned some pocket money for myself!=)

All the students that helped out for INTI Open Day and our marketing officers~ Love working with them~~ They’re all so nice to us!

Us student helpers~ A few more left early.=(

Guys from left: Andrew, Alvin, Xeel

Gurls from top: Ceria, me and Emily!=)

I just can’t stop myself from posting this pic!! So nice!! I didnt edit anything!!! Pretty gurlss~~~ drooling..XD*p/s: I AM STRAIGHT!

After the weekend, I went to Cheras Pasar Malam on Wednesday!=D

According to some people, it is the biggest pasar malam around so I went to take a look myself~ Knowing there’ll be A LOTTA FOOD there…hehe..

Tagged along with my foundation classmates.

US!

THAT , my friends, is the famous, SMELLY TOFU!!! AKA Chou Dou Fu / canto: Chau Tau fu

My gawd!! I can’t believe you ate this JOYCE NG AND ANN JIE!!! Eww!! And you said it was OKAY!!! omggg…..

It smelt like drain and baby poo, tasted like drain water and OMG!!! We bought ten bucks worth of it=.= Dumb? yeah..I know..

All of us ate it , except for Maggie..(stares at Maggie)

I ATE IT TOO! REALLY!!!!

NAH! PROOF! See my face??? It tells you how badly it tasted…and smelt like..*bluehhhh*GELIIII

Oh! I watched Toy Story 3 too.. It wasn’t THAT nice but still, not bad…=) I cried when Woody was leaving his friends. No doubt to me, it was the best part in the whole movie. =)

Kinda blur..sorry.=( It was my FIRST outing with the both of them ya know..Quite cool hanging out with my closest classmates in Degree=) They’re both very funny people. *chuckles*

And YESTERDAY, I WENT FOR GOLF!!!=D

My first official time playing golf at the driving range. haha! Lesson no1 people, the DRIVING RANGE is NOT a place where you drive around. Its where you stand there and just hit the ball.Muahaha..Say thank you sensei at the chatterbox if you didn’t know that before this!XD

Naim and Joe. Fuyoh fuyoh!! Ada gaya kan! My golf senseis….Loads of thanks to the both of you!!!=D

Joe’s my strict instructor where he says, “ do it again, do it again, do it again” and Naim, aka Meow, is the “just whack only~~”and giggling instructor+partner. LOL

Yeah, then it was sensei have fun time. Look at the story line!

#1: Meow is Joe’s ….ball placer. LOL! I dont know what you call that thing where you place your ball on.Joe aims.

#2:Haiyyah!!!

#3: *whacking……*

#4:Joe: POW!!!!

Naim: OUCHH!!!!

Me: *chuckles*

-THE END-

My turn~~~ =D Kurang gaya sikit but still pass what~~

Okay…Image ruined. =.= But my instructors did say my golf was okay..RIGHT??? =D

I love that fluffy thing! They used it to put …one of the golf sticks ..No idea whats the name. =P

I took a pic of these lil cuties. Haha..Their mom let me~ =D see the blue tiny set at the front? That’s THEIR OWN KIDDY GOLF SET!! wthhhhh…..

I am 19 and I don’t even have one!! >.< *jealous*

Btw, the cutie in blue is only 6 and the other’s 4 only!!! Aren’t they just adorable!!!!*smiles to myself*

Yeahh….One more last look at my instructors. Joe and Naim the Meow.

Apalahh…Inti students wearing Taylor’s and Malaysian Airlines shirt!! =.=”

Oh! I had volleyball practice just now and it was awesomeee~~~ We might have a competition on July 24th ! Us versus Sepang team. Finallyyyy…And then next semester, we’ll be having Inti Open!=D Go Inti girl’s Volleyball team!!! I really hope that we will get a chance to play and maaayyyybbbeeeeee, win something. =P Although we’re quite…weak but , I can dream can’t I? =) keep our fingers crossed girls!

I LOVE VOLLEYBALL!!!

You will be leaving soon but still, try to stay outta my life okay? I know you are doing nothing but following where your heart wants. You think you’re not doing anything wrong or hurting anyone but please open up your eyes and ears when you follow your heart okay? You might not know it but there are some lines that you shouldn’t cross , not now , not right now. Things are already as bad as it is, having you in the picture just makes things worse. Honestly, I dislike you. I have no right to tell you off but I really feel like it.

如果你还放不下某个人。。。请看看。。。

2010-07-03T19:38:00.000+08:00

Read this in facebook.. =)

如果你还放不下某个人。。。请看看。。。

傻孩子，到现在还放不下对方吗，，

傻孩子，到现在还想着对方的一点一滴吗，，，

傻孩子，有些人、有些事、我们可能偏偏放不下，，，

傻孩子，我来给你做个试验：

　　你拿着一个茶杯，然后就往里面倒热水，一直倒到水溢

出来。

你烫到手的时候是马上松手了吗？

知道我想说什么了吗？

　　这个世界上没有什么事是放不下的，痛了，你自然就会放下。

傻孩子．

忘了吧．所有你留恋的．你回忆的．你拥有过的．

那些．都已是记忆．

缺失并不可怕．

可怕的．是无法面对．

傻孩子．

你无法轻易忘记放弃．是因为你付出过．

付出了．他就会像柱子一样扎根在心．

不要刻意去逃避．刻意忘记．那只会让你更痛苦．

绕开这个柱子．寻找未来的幸福生活吧．

那里．有你的理想．

傻孩子．

开始新的习惯吧．

习惯．每天一个人生活．

习惯．一个人过生日．一个人行走．

习惯．走过熟悉的路．面对熟悉的景．

你逃不掉．逃不掉的．

那么．就勇敢面对．现实．

现实是．一切．画上了句点．

傻孩子．

勇敢看着镜子中的自己吧．

这个悲伤软弱满面憔悴的自己．

这也是你．成长中的你．

这个你．正在逐渐死去．

新的你．即将重生．

寻你的路．你的未来．

你知道的．所有的浩劫．都是成长的祭奠．

做最好的自己．即使．一个人．

傻孩子．

好．好．尽情发泄吧．

　　剥开自己的心．用文字．用声音．用所有能发泄的方式．

泄完了．就要振作．

看吧．你失去的．其实微不足道．

还有那么多人关心着你．以不同的方式．

所以．你并不孤独．

正是这样的失去．让你看清现在所拥有的幸福．

傻孩子．

别哭．别再哭．

不值得．真的．不值得了．

把过去尘封吧．别委屈．别不甘心．别不接受．

开始新的旅程吧．去遇见新的风景．新的际遇．

做你该做的事吧．有很多事．等待着你完成呢．

傻孩子．

生活褪去了曾有的颜色．暂时宁静．

别沉沦在这片宁静里．那会毁掉你．

你要明白．虽然残忍．但这个决定．足够正确．

现在的生活．不是你想要的．

为了你的理想．你必须学会适时放弃．

　　给对方最好的关怀．就是．变的更好．更强大．更幸福．

　　现在我对你很好、很好、很好，你不需要、你无所谓、你不在乎，你不珍惜。。。。

　　当某天，你被伤害，想起我。你就会明白了。。。。。。。。。。。

　　好好的对待对方是最好的，以后的时间是很长的，既然缘分让你们相交，记得珍惜。。。

そのときは　かのじょう　よろしく

送给还在坚持的人们，，，，，，，

有时候放手了，，，，

可能你就轻松一些了。。。。

记得要让自己高兴。。。。。。

By ：糖果

Am dedicating this to you, whoever you are. =)

Love Story

2010-07-03T00:40:00.000+08:00

Gigi's Life Read it and Weep.
Oh god, is this all really fate? Or human doings? Are you punishing us for what we have done ? Or are you trying to tell us that this isn't the one for us? Are we to let go and let nature take its pace? Because from my point of view, no matter how much one loves another, most of us still end up splitting apart. I'm talking about those real relationships where one REALLY REALLY loves another. Not the play kind. Not those that has jerks or bitches in them. I know I'm still a little too young to be talking about ETERNAL LOVE, but if I don't start with a tiny love, I'll never have eternal love. Am I right?

I shouldn't care anymore...

2010-06-28T22:25:00.000+08:00

Is there a switch for our feelings? Because I would love to turn the switch off right now.
Am gonna blog about the weekend and etc after my exam...=D
XOXO!

Sweet tooth

2010-06-26T22:46:00.001+08:00

Well, I have been saying that I'm going on a diet to lose that bloody tummy I gained a month earlier. But I am obviously FAILING to do so.T.T

I’ve been eating a hell lotta sweet and fattening things lately!!! Crap!!! But seriously, they’re AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<3<3

Lemme just intro you to a couple of em ;-)

starting from the least fattening one, CHEWING GUM!!

Wrigley’s new product!! DAmn cool right??? I thought it was a condom at first..XD Then I thought to myself, INTI mart would never sell condoms…So I took a closer a look and WALLAH! Awesome, cool packaged chewing gum!! And it tastes good too!!=) Comes in 3 flavours.

Cool right??

2) Up next,

FERRERO RONDNOIR~~<3<3

Kinda expensive for a chocolate but trust me, Its nice!!!

3)My all time loved chocolate bar

Crunchie!!!!!

Its so awesome that I wish I can just eat and eat and never stop. Unfortunately, …. body issues restricted me from doing so..=(

Honeycombed sugar centre….Super duper nice sial!! Makes the chocolate bar not too sweet and you don’t get what we Malaysians call “JELAK” after eating it~ Its one of the few chocolates that I can eat non stop~

4) My new found love!!! (am not gonna abandon my Crunchie dear. Don’t worry)

BOOOSTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

New found fav <3 OMG…This chocolate bar is like soooooooo awesome people!! For real!!

I am a lover of both Crunchie and Snickers and BOOST is like the perfect combination of both!! Its like baby of Daddy Snickers and Mummy Crunchie!!!<3<3 Awesome shit seriously!! Compared to Snikers , Boost has a thicker and more compact layer of caramel which is so totally awesome~~ and it has the golden crust thingy that Crunchie has in the middle. OMG… It is so nice that you would …you would…feel like you’re in heaven!! aahhh~~~~

YES PEOPLE. These are the stuff I’ve been eating these daysss….Diet my ass lar…eat all these fattening things somemore.. Ooh! These are just food.

There’s a new found coffee place named “Adam and Anna Coffee House” near INTI and the coffee there is awesome!! The place is superb too~ I shall take a lotta pics when I get there the next time =P

Ice Caramel Latte .

Not bad…I am not a big fan of coffee and I don’t really know much about em , but I liked it!=)

Their Ice Blended Chocolate is really awesome though! I love chocolates so I can give my comment on that =P

SEEEEEEEE….gemuknya Choo Su Zian . Aihhh…. Oh well, shall start my dieting plan soon lar….*consoling myself*haha..

Graduation + President’s Honor roll

2010-06-25T00:41:00.001+08:00

Graduation for FOUNDATIONNNNN programme…haha…Kinda hilarious actually…Weird…. But this time, we have black robes to wear and all our foundation classmates were with us!=D

Seven dwarfs from March Intake 2009 Foundation in Business~~=D

yeay~~ the picta group every sem =)

My deary classmates~~ I did that pose and they just followed…Haha!! Kinda funny actually..

Much betta~=D

Wendy! Someone unexpected to take a pic with..=P

wallah!! The sister, Shereen!!=D Yeah…we’re BOTH from the slow group..haha..

According to ..people…we’re slow..=.=

Claryn! Yeah…we have a pic EVERY SEM!! =D

Roommate, ex-classmate, award-mate!=D Awesomee=)

Yalah yalah..wa tau lah…Gemuk kan?? Akan mula diet secepat mungkin …..

NAH! My bum!

Chao~~

Meowww….=P

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It has been a month

2010-06-23T02:24:00.000+08:00

Whenever I try to make decisions, something will definitely pull me back.

Today, I told myself that I will be a brave gurl.

I will forget everything that has happened and go back to how things were before.

Stay great friends.

I thought I've kept all my feelings and hopes away already
but then,
I read Alvin's blog.
The things he wrote,
they brought back memories.
Scenes played in front of my eyes like a movie.
I missed him even more
I realized, I have never been able to get through it.
Why... Why am I so weak?

Why am I being so stupid, so stubborn ?

Why am I still hanging on...

The nightmare just never ends...

2010-06-21T23:09:00.000+08:00

I thought pretending not to care in reality would totally help me.

I mean, I've did it before so it should be easy..

Who knew my dreams come to haunt me every time I visit dreamland now.

When will it end...

One year is way too long..

I don't want to go through it again for a year..

One month was long enough already..

Amnesia.....would you come to me now?

I'm sick and tired of myself...

I'm starting to be afraid of the time I spend alone with myself.

Thoughts haunt, memories overflow...

I've heard of brain overload but never heart overload...

This is another emo post so don't bother highlighting and read cause I'm sure you're not interested in hearing me whine again. I made it white because I know it annoys people.

The day in the hospital

2010-06-16T12:50:00.001+08:00

Aih..Im posting this AGAIN=.= Apparently , windows live writer deleted my previous blog post..gahh…. Stupid thing…

Anyways , mom had to undergo an operation back in Malacca and I was THE LAST to know about it!! I was very upset at first but then she told my brother that she didn’t want me to know because she was afraid that I might get worried and that my future is much more important than her health.. *tearing up* sniff sniff… =( Mommy, I love you..<3 No matter what happens I will always be your daughter and I will always love you…

So I took two days leave and went back home to be there for mom before and after her operation.

busy busy mom..Even in the hospital also 24 7 on the phone with friends and family…=.=

Tried to camwhore with her but…FAIL T.T

Hospital provided lunch for her but she can’t eat before the op so I had to eat it…

Looks okay right?? TRUST ME , YOU DON’T EVER WANT TO TRY IT!! One word, YUCK!!>.<

Camwhore while mommy’s in the operation room… Too bored d lar..Can’t blame me right??Been there since 10 am, surgery pulak at 4 .. *blushes*

Totally awesome black forest and new york cheese cake from Secret Recipe delivered by daddy !! <3<3

Love you dad!! you’re awesome!!! But I gained weight because of this…T.T

Yum Yum… eat first nee gam fei lar!

Watch out people, FEI PO COMING !!! XP

Intiball 2010-The Venetian Masquerade part 2

2010-06-15T02:15:00.001+08:00

Ooh, more pictures=) grabbed from facebook..haha

The main committees of this Intiball performing a dance for us. They were awesome~

5 dashing young men are the Beau Monsieur and the 4 young ladies on the right are the Belle Madames~

yeah..Me in it..Thanks to Daniel Saw =.= I know..its a joke =) ...and I’m so sorry for polluting your eyes… But this IS MY blog...so…..here goes~

me , picking out some Challenge they asked me to do. OMG

Okay, if you can’t see what’s up there, its a video of a belly dancer doing what she’s supposed to do.

I did my challenge VERY SPORTINGLY !! =P

My description: A monkey swinging its arms and walking around.End of story.

And we have the Beau Monsieur! and Belle Madame~

*stolen from his fb* Hope he doesn’t mind!=D

Awesome “Nobody Nobody But you” Dance by him!!=D

Waka waka dance by her!! Good song btw!<3<3

Carl SMILINGGGG XP

Intiball 2010 - The Venetian Masquerade

2010-06-13T18:38:00.001+08:00

My first masquerade!!=D Well, honestly speaking, it felt more like a dinner where people go and eat and talk ny..No offense though..lol..Maybe it was because not many people were dancing out there ..=S But anyways, I had fun~ =) Chit chatting with friends, messing with masks, belly dancing~~~ XD
Unfortunately for me, I only took a few pictures as my camera ran outta battery ..T.T But I will assure you, more pictures will be coming up soon~=)

Me, Clare, Bala! Love Bala’s dress!! <3 and Mask!!

Clare and I

Yat sin and I =)
Exchange mask~~XD
Sailesh and his date,Renesha

Meow and the Mongolian! Hahaha!

I am Heart No.1. I wonder who’s my Spade No.1? ;-)

=)
One night of Glamour and I’m back home now..
Two days of complete rest, cut off from what’s happening , and full attention on mom. When I go back to Inti, I want me back.
XOXO

Shooting stars…where are you?

2010-06-11T01:56:00.001+08:00

Shooting Stars, oh Shooting stars ...This is the time you guys start granting the wishes I wished before.. >.< I wished really hard and I wished quite a couple of times for the same wish to come true..The magic should last forever but it didn't so other stars give the wish a bit more magic dust for it to continue please!!

When you have fun through a glass~=D

ss wei lynn=.=

Hong Shien feeling contented after our meal=)

My face was like this=> (=.=)

I hope it’ll come true..

Volleyball <3

2010-06-09T02:13:00.001+08:00

Aahh... Volleyball, mummy's back!!<3

Yep! Im playing volleyball again!! Today's practice was awesome. For once, we girls can finally form 2 teams and play a game against each other.=) All girls game~ Niceee...Reminds me of the old times=) I was thirteen when I started playing the sport and I loved it! It takes everything off my mind and after practice, I always feel relaxed. Thats what I feel now.. Finally... Totally relaxed...I don't care if my feelings are numb anymore. Screw them. I'm just going to let them stay numb until one day when I'm forced to face them then I'll decide what to do. For now, just go with the wind Suz~ =)

Numb..

2010-06-08T03:42:00.001+08:00

You know when people say its okay to be mad? Its a form of expressing yourself and its understandable? I guess it just doesn’t apply to everyone.

I got mad and I lost control of myself. I lost my ability of rationalizing my thoughts and controlling my feelings and it ended up hurting people real badly. I don’t ask for forgiveness or anything because I know I’m wrong to be so mad in the first place. I shouldn’t have cared so much. I should’ve just let things go. That was how I handled my feelings before but I guess when I got comfortable showing too much feelings, it just happens naturally . I let them run freely without thinking of the consequences.

Letting them run wild was truly a mistake that I regretted not more than one minute later. It always happens to me and I don’t know why. I felt really guilty and wasn’t mad anymore. All I wanted to know was just the reason and nothing else.

You know what? Right now, at this very moment , I feel so numb. Both the heart and the mind doesn’t know what to do anymore. They’re feeling what they felt in the near past. Tired, and helpless. I just wish that some car or something would just do something that will make me lose all my memories. I admit that I am running away but I guess, that’s the only thing that can make everything better now.

Anyways, HAPPY 18th Birthday Carl!!!=D Hope you enjoyed the celebration!

My priority

2010-06-05T01:48:00.000+08:00

I always use the sentence" I hate you" .

It doesn't really mean I hate you ..

Its just my figure of speech.

You see me smiling when i say that~=)

The only time when I say I hate you and I mean it

is when

you lie to me,

betraying my trust in the way,

and hoping silly little me would just sit and cry

and do NADA

nothing about it.

I do dislike some people sometimes.

I may dislike you right now but a minute or two later I can totally forgive and forget about it and get along so well with you.

But if you ever step on my tail for just one time,

let me tell you,

I do not forgive

and

I do NOT forget.

I remember and I will take my revenge.

Note that.

So do not think that I am a mat that you can just step all over and I won't react .

Trust me,

when you get me mad,

you would regret you ever did that to me in your life.

Pay back time.

2010-06-04T17:35:00.000+08:00

OMGOMGOMGOMG... Thank you Yong Jie. You enlightened me. Not bad huh... Actually having friends who would nose about in your business once in a while..
FUCKING, BLOODY HELL, SCREWED UP, SON OF A BITCH. This is what happens when you lie and betray a scorpion.
I'm going to be Little Miss Nice Gurl NO MORE. Lets see what you have to say about it this time. Bloody hell. I'm tired of searching for excuses, giving myself false hope for nothing already. Since reality just gave me a huge slap on the face, I'm giving it back to you. Yes. YOU.

Tonight's gonna be a good night!

2010-05-29T01:06:00.000+08:00

Tonight will be the night I let go and let time do its thing.
Prove to me what it has to prove and tell me what I want to know.
Still, thank you for everything.

Mad but it still hurts. It'll take time for me to take it off...

2010-05-28T13:53:00.000+08:00

Thank you thank you thank you thank you. You guys have been awesome !! Totally supportive and I would just like to say thank you. =)
Thank you,Wei Lynn, Claryn, Di, Yang, Joe, Carl, Vincent, Peter, Joel, Deric, Eric, Siew Chen, Shue Shian, a Tan...etc etc . You guys are really nice people and I really appreciate your concerns.
I don't know what some people might think of me lately. Maybe a bitch, a slut, an idiot, faker blah blah blah ..I don't know. These are just my opinions... I'm not going to argue with you about this but please, not once have I ever faked anything .
p/s: thank you Wei Lynn and Hong Shien for letting me crash at your place for the night!! I really appreciated it!!!>.< I'm sorry you two rolled from the bed to the floor...*blushes* You can actually just leave a lil space there ..no need so much wan..The space you left for me is enough to fit another person there you know...XD But thanks anyways....

My only way to forget you.

2010-05-25T15:17:00.001+08:00

Woootttt!!! Guess what i had for lunch! 90% Cili Padi and 10% of rice only..haha... Well, a lot of things was running through my head in just now so yeah,..needed to get high like ASAP! P/s: I finally understand the term of getting high..XD

My first instinct was doing something really really dumb and fun like...going to Genting for the "Solero Shot" , Roller Coaster, and do daredevil stuffs . Unfortunately, my financial problems brought me back to doing something that I could do right there right now. So moving next was to tire myself out by swimming. I realized it kinda didn't help. I made my body weak but my mind and heart grew stronger so I was like...concious. LOL. So last alternative, Spice up my mind!!=D No alcohol here so spicy stuff is second best to it.

Thus, I ignored the harm it would do to muh throat (really really harmful) and grabbed a 'plate' of cili padi and finished it in seconds. NOT EXAGGERATING!! I first had it with a lil rice but then I realized it doesn't have any effect. After eating the second and third plate of cili padi, I got bored so I finished the fourth plate by eating PLAINLY cili padi~

Sorry, I wished I had pictures..>.< But according to Vincent, I looked pretty dumb=.= He was laughing every time I coughed like hell..=.= Stupidddd.....

OMG...you have no idea how....OMG it felt like. Of course it pushed all the thoughts outta my head leaving only the urge to scream "SPICY!!!! OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!!! " And then I was coughing and coughing and shove a big piece of ice into my mouth. Immediately my mind focused on swallowing saliva with that big piece of ice in my mouth. A big challenge seriously. XD

So in the end, my tongue hurts and my throat is starting to torture me now . But people, its all good.~~~~ hehehe....I AM AWESOME!!

Im going to pretend that nothin has ever happened before.

2010-05-24T16:32:00.000+08:00

Okay..wow..erm.......... Lets see... From today onwards I am going to laugh as hard as I can, smile as wide as I can, go as wild as I can, be as busy as I could get. College life starts over again!! Its time to live my life!! *Big breath* Guys, bring me along if you're going out!! =D I would love that!! AND.... I would love it even more if you guys would pay for that too...hahaha......kk Suz. I love you!!
*Don't care
Don't look
Don't ask
Don't think*
My motto for the meantime..;-)

I hope nothing will change guys.

2010-05-24T02:38:00.001+08:00

You guys just got the news and I really hope nothing will change. You don’t have to pity me . I would rather have you people forget about it and ignore me okay? Claryn? Thank you… If it’s possible, don’t spread the news around unless asked of. I really don’t want any pity. I love you guys so much…….>.< If you really want to help, you could do that by keeping me busy…=) I’d be more than thankful for that…

I want another ''WE'' trip!!

2010-05-15T17:51:00.001+08:00

I WANNA GO ON A TRIP WITH A BIG GROUP OF FRIENDS AND DO NOTHING BUT HAVE FUN!!!!!

this trip was really awesome!! Although I didn’t know more than half of them but we really had fun for the two days…>.<

This was great too!! Although I have been around Malacca for like FOREVER, it was still fun cause it was a group thing. =)

I want another trip. I really wish that the whole group of us, Jao, Di, Claryn, Yang, Qian, John, maybe Daniel, Shereen and etc can just go on a trip to somewhere and have lotsa pics and memories together!!! We hardly hang out as a group anymore..sobs….T.T Redang maybe people?

Before and after

2010-05-06T17:47:00.001+08:00

Before I was in a relationship, I had always thought that I would never do this I would never do that. That’s too gross! That’ll just be way too annoying for me. I can never do that. All the I will NEVER, I can NEVER, there is NO way comes into my mind and I can’t seem to find sense in the things girl’s do in a relationship.

But now, all these I will NEVER, I can NEVER, there is NO way happens. Its not that i think its not good, its just sometimes it affects me too much and I get annoyed by myself. Last time I don’t have to care but now I do! And I have to get myself to think, why care? just to make me feel better about myself. Gosh….is this normal? I don’t know… I think I do know in a way but I don’t wanna admit it thats all.

A name like a punch.

2010-05-04T02:03:00.000+08:00

It doesn't feel good when you get your stomach punched so hard that you can't breathe.

It doesn't hurt that bad but at that moment, all you feel is the lost of hope.

Woot!!!

2010-04-27T23:45:00.000+08:00

Finally, the results for my final semester's are out!!! And HAHAHAHA!!!!!!! As I have dreamed and YEARNED for the whole foundation year, I FINALLY GOT AN A FOR MY ENGLISH!!!!YEAY ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Loook!! Proof!!!

HEHEHEH…….A people!! A!!!!! Lets partay~~~~~~~~~~~XD
And as I have promised , Claryn.Here are pics of my nephew…Being a tiny snowman…

He flips the pig over and asked me" gu(aunt) , where is the coin? “
Adorable lil guy isnt he??? He thinks that all pigs have coins in their tummy!! Haha!! My innocent little baby~~>.<

Nice smile for the camera,…and Claryn….LOL…
Happy le Claryn??XD

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

2010-04-26T03:31:00.000+08:00

Reviewing my past 3 sems in INTI ,I realized I have a lot of nice people around me but none of them gives me the feeling my gurls from high school gave me. My gurls always feel close to my heart as we keep no secrets from each other and its always all of us against the others. Now I just couldn't find this feeling back anymore and I feel so alone because of that. I kinda envy xian yeun, Yan ting, Bee Hoon, kiang and etc. They have each other at UTAR and they're like so freaking close!!! And Wei Lynn, Hong Shien, Leet Ying and etc, they too have each other in Form 6!!>.< Its not about sticking to the people you know. Its just that they have people that are close to their heart there! And that is something I couldn't find in college..T.T
I want a Wei Lynn there. I want a tze Lin there. I want a Vi Vien there. I want a yun Yi there. I want a Shu Tin there. I want another Joyce, Ann Jie, Tamby, Shu Sze, Mok, etc etc in college!! But I just can't seem to spot them around here...I miss you guys.....T.T I miss fooling and gossiping and messing around with all of you all the time!!!!!
Next semester will be a whole new semester and I'll be having all new classmates. Hopefully I can find new friends there...>.<

Continuation

2010-04-25T02:22:00.001+08:00

Ooh… One more thing, spotted this little thing before I stepped into my house..Wonder what that is.. \

Took me ages to take a clear pic of it as it ran in and out all the time…=S

Finally Im back to life!!

2010-04-25T01:57:00.001+08:00

Yeay!!! Finally a day outta home to bring me back to life!!! Aha!!=D

Went swimming with Claryn and Wei Lynn today and OMG….Wei Lynn, seriously, TIME TO LEARN SWIMMING!! I was laughing the whole time! She created new moves for swimming people.

Check this out, The “ Rabbit Stroke”. This stroke can only be done at shallow ends of the pool and all you have to do is just Jump! HAHA!! Hilarious..Then, there is the “teng teng” stroke where you dance Teng Teng in the pool!!XD

Claryn was laughing like mad and I was too. Omg…Wei Lynn’s a real entertainer..(compliment) All the time we were laughing and splashing water and laughing and playing and NOT SWIMMING AT ALL. Haih..No fats burnt people. =.=

This is what happens when you put two kids in the swimming pool..

Im way waayyyy over here Claryn..XP

*ngek..kids nowadays…XD

Then comes the bathing part……

*Wei lynn is so gonna kill me for this….>.<

*tralalala~~ Wash wash wash~~~

*Wei Lynn: Mummy..I want a hair wash…I emo d…XD

*WeiLynn :Weeeeeeeee…..

*Wei Lynn:Awesomeeee…..Now I got muh hair washed! And my face……

*me: Gotcha!!=D

So after swimming we went for Satay Celup and then to Jonker.

Ooohhhh…People people people, you have gotta go to Jonker NOW!!! OMG…they have so many amazing and nice food selling there now!!!! Bring enough money and an empty stomach, I promise that you will have a very very satisfied tummy when you go home!=D

Claryn with food…guess whats that spiral thing!

She has one.

I have one.

Wei Lynn has one too!!=D

(they’re actually the same one..O.O)

I forgot its name but it tastes pretty okay. It tastes like wedges and you can choose how you want it to taste among a few flavours like we had BBQ, and there are Cheese( lots of people ordered that), Sour Cream and Onion( Di would like that), Salt only, Chilli and something, etc etc.=) They have it at the starting of Jonker streets where the stage is. Go try!=D

Now I look like Im three months pregnant.T.T Body screaming TOO FAT!!!!!!!!!!!!! time to workout I guess huh Claryn….=S Will join you with that in college lar…aihhhhh…

ngek…

2010-04-22T17:58:00.001+08:00

Life’s so boring that I have to blog to pass time….=S

Today is a very uber “sueh” day. Why?

This morning, I woke up late for my brother and he nearly got to school late because of me. After that, I went back to sleep till the little monkey woke me up from my sleep by sitting on my tummy. Then i had to spend one hour feeding him rice as he is not one of those good lil kids that would just sit down quietly and finish up their rice/meal. It only happens if I was offering him sweets or ice cream.=.=

Then after that hour it was school time for him and now I had to deal with him crying while hugging me tight when he sees the nursery. Aiyayai…

Then I went for a 120 bucks hair treatment which was supposed to make my hair better. Unfortunately, both Claryn’s and my hair came out to be exactly like how it was before the 120 bucks was spent. Aihhh…..At least now I’ve got an experience of “hair spa”.

Just when things couldn’t have gotten any better, I knocked my leg against the bicycle wheel and LOOK WHAT IT GAVE ME!!!

sakit sialllll……………….Now I have to pick the little one from school…aihhh…there goes one more day~

Yawnnn

2010-04-21T22:10:00.001+08:00

Been really bored lately. Its the fourth day of my semester break and I am already wishing that it can end soon so I can stop doing chores and babysitting and becoming people's chauffeur. It is very very tiring and I seriously hate doing all these... Its like I'm being a mom now.=.= Hate this hate this. GAHHHHHHH....

I need a good laugh,a good trip,a good outing with my friends to get me outta this..>.<

Yawwwnnnn....

*studying at KLIA for my last sem’s finals*

Back home

2010-04-19T23:23:00.000+08:00

Aaaahhh...Been back home for two days now~ and I am totally starting to miss INTI already.>.
   Every morning, I gotta wake up at 7 am to fetch my lil brother to school. Then at one or twelve thirty, I gotta fetch my lil lil nephew to pre-school! ( My little baby is finally going to school! *wipes the tear off the end of my eye*) After about one hour, I gotta go pick my brother back from school and oh , did I mention? I HAVE TO FACE THE BLOODY HALF AN HOUR TO ONE HOUR JAM IN FRONT OF GBS! gahhh....
    Then after having maybe half or less than half a day to myself, I gotta run errands for my mom and do chores.T.T Now that my parents aren't hiring a maid anymore, we or I gotta do all the work..=.= Totally dislike this.. I hate doing chores!!!!GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH....Mind me for being such a xiao jie. >.< But who likes em!
   Oh! Im being a nanny for the baby nephew too..That means temaning him and layaning him all the way.=S
Anyways, I learnt a new song today and I would like to share it!=D( imitating Mickey's voice)

*I'm off to save the kite parade

kite parade,kite parade

I'm off to save the kite parade

and

find the missing kites*

I am DONE WITH FOUNDATION!

2010-04-19T02:40:00.001+08:00

YEAY ME!! Im finally done with foundation!!=D

On 21st March 09, I stepped into INTI and started my first day of foundation in business. I still remembered when we were asked to stand up one by one on the first week of class and introduce ourselves. Haha. Claryn was always sitting beside me and we were talking about dumb dumb stuff. XD

*Camwhoring in class while we should be listening to the lecturer.XD

The first semester went by really fast and the second semester came.

That semester changed a little. The IT and the Business students were then seperated into different classes already as we were taking different subjects. Awesome, funny classmates like Joel, Deric, Khai Loon, Eric , Prashun and etc were seperated from us and it felt a little weird without them as a few of them were our class clowns(no offense. Its a compliment.=)) We missed them.

*Prashun, I, Claryn, and Suren. In semester 1.

But eventually, we found new entertainments! haha..Melvin and Peter! =D They're awesome and cute guys that never fail to make me laugh. And sometimes annoyed. Melvin is always:" Su Zian ar, blablabla". He either nags me on my laziness or he just wanna kacau me when I SMS in class.XD . While Peter, is more of the evil kind. Foul words like..*eherm! and eherm!*could be heard 24 7 and he likes to bully a few of the gurls in class. Totally evil right?? I know! But he is actually a very nice person to hang out with. When I was down, he would find a very nice way to console me and I wouldn't feel bad anymore! He feels like my big brother ~~and sometimes I just feel like hugging him~~ >.< One more thing about him, he likes to say that he is poor =.= which is totally the opposite of what he really is.

They brought more laughter to the class. Sometimes when they're not around, it just feels way too quiet and weird . Haih.. Those days...

Now that I have finished my foundation, I will be pursuing a Degree in Accounting (or accountancy. Im confused) and neither of my bubbly awesome friends from foundation will be taking it with me. Haihh...melvin, Peter, and the seven dwarfs (Claryn, Shue Shian, Siew Chen, Jia Qi, Su Ling, Wendy,me)+ Hui Xuan. Aihh...I won't be seeing all of em in my Degree classes I guess.

*after presentation. Melvin,Claryn, Peter, and I.

*partial Seven dwarfs.

I'll miss you guys!!>.<

Saying sorry brings me nothing but harm...=.=

2010-04-15T23:53:00.000+08:00

道歉是有意思的。。
如果你莫名接受别人的道歉却不知道为什么有人会向你道歉，
那我觉得那鼓起勇气向你道歉的人白白浪费自己的力气了。
知不知道要打开嘴巴真心真意的像一个人道歉是一件很难的事情？
他人向你道歉的话就要珍惜。
如果收到莫名歉意，你应该告诉他他没有什么对不起你，而不是茫然接受！
你知道这对一个人是多大的耻辱吗？！

I changed this post.

2010-04-14T03:53:00.000+08:00

JOEL, YOU'RE AWESOME..XD

I edited the post btw..

The one you saw isn't here already so

guess it's between you and me !

Thanks Joel.

sssshhhh.....